What seemed to be a usual morning, except for the fact that HER and me aren't on talking terms, turned totally upside down in just a matter of seconds.

During the start of Physics in school..

Monitor : Good morning, Miss Norhafiza.
Class : Good morning, Miss Norhafiza.
Miss Norhafiza : Good morning, class. Let's read the prayer.
*Muslims in class starts reciting the prayer*
Miss Norhafiza : Have a seat please. *pause* Nak belajar ke tak hari ni?
Student A and B : Nak..(in a monotonous tone)
Leonie : Tak nak..(in a JOKING manner)
Miss Norhafiza : Kalau tak nak, keluar dari kelas sekarang.
Leonie : *stares in disbelief*
Miss Norhafiza : I mean it, get out of the class NOW. *points to the door*
Leonie : *thinks twice about stepping out from the lab, but decides not to as the class will be doing an experiment concerning the ticker timer later on* But teacher, I was just.. *wanted to say joking but knowing how much trouble she'll get into it for it*
Miss Norhafiza : Joking? But I'm serious.
Leonie : *tries to think of a witty comeback but was too shocked by the sudden change in mood of the teacher, so fails miserably and just decides to say..* I'm sorry, teacher.
Inner Leonie says : Fuck yourself, BITCH. Even if you're having PMS for all I care, you don't have the right to pick on me like that. The whole class knew I was joking, so why couldn't you just let it go and ignore it? Sensitive moody BITCH.
Miss Norhafiza : *starts going ballistic all of a sudden* The non-Muslims in this class, don't you have any respect for us while we're reciting the prayer?! Even if you're not a Muslim, you should be having your own prayer to recite and not talking and playing around while we're reciting the prayer. Don't you have any respect for us?! I really don't want to scold you all and I hate showing you my ugly face, so please, show me some respect!
Inner Leonie : UGH! I wasn't even making the slightest sound while you guys are reciting the prayer! So why does it have to be ME who gets victimized?? Bitch bitch bitch bitch BITCH!!!

(Song playing in Leonie's head throughout the whole Physics lesson - Family Reunion by Blink 182. Note : I don't mean any of the lyrics in the song literally, but just swearing using the words from it. Why can't I post the lyrics here? Well, go Google it up and you'll know the reason why. Eheh.)

I was sarcastic throughout the entire lesson, and I showed my displeasure clearly to the teacher whenever I could. Hence, Leonie sincerely apologizes if any of my 4 Science 1 peeps got offended by Leonie's tone while she's speaking to you. She totally doesn't mean it, only maybe towards that same teacher of course.

I can honestly tell you, my blood was literally BOILING during the whole lesson. I couldn't really concentrate that much, and I did tried to focus on doing the stupid report, but it was then I realized I started getting all teary.

Couldn't wait for the class to be over, and while the class wished her at the end of the lesson, I didn't even bother looking at her nor wished her and stormed out of class right past her. I couldn't care less anymore about getting blacklisted or anything, since I had always been paranoid with the whole demerit system and me being a perfectionist (and a freaking prefect at that), doesn't like being in the bad books of any teacher.

I shall gladly elaborate more about her profound teaching methods later on which made me dislike her in the first place.

All there is to this story after I left the Physics' lab, I fast-walked back to class and was the first to arrive. I sat down at my place alone, and the incident from Physics class earlier left me quite scarred. Normal for a goody-two-shoes like me in school.

Min Wen and Jia Xin came up to class not long after and Min Wen approached me, asking me whether I was alright or not.

It was then I started cursing in Chinese and ranting and raising my voice and dissatisfaction on that teacher. I went on and on and on..

And then, I started crying. In rage.

I was so freaking frustrated with life at that juncture. I just broke down.

Min Wen was super shocked I cried all of a sudden, and tried to calm me down.

I just cried harder.

The rest of my class peeps came up soon, and saw me in that pathetic state, and were persuading me to stop crying and that it wasn't worth crying over the Physics teacher. Evonne was saying that she might had forgotten all about it already and that it was her being moody.

I was kinda ignoring the earlier comments, as I was crying so hard, I couldn't concentrate on what they were saying.

All I could feel was May rubbing my back non-stop, showing that she is there for me.

Then, I felt somebody who hugged me from behind.

"Leonie, don't cry anymore.."
Whoever that voice could belong to if not my darling Anna Sabrina.

There was something about her voice that I could feel that pinch of sincerity, her caring self being there for me, making sure that I'm alright.

I just turned around and hugged her.

I didn't want to let go. There was something about Anna's hug that soothed me, somehow.

"Leonie, don't cry anymore, or I'm gonna cry too.."

"I'm so sorry Anna..Don't cry..I'll try to stop for you.."
I then quickly forced a smile to try and create more happy hormones in my body so that I'll try to stop crying naturally.

It was at that part I heard my friends talking about the weirdness, craziness, madness, etc. of the Physics practical teacher when I got to one part where Tasha or Soske, I can't make out the voice that time, saying that the teacher was having PMS and somebody should hand her a pad.

I then decided to step in at this point and said, "I don't think she's having PMS, guys. Poor thing, she's probably having her menopause too early."

Some laughed, some were shocked at what I said, but in a good way, as they take it as a sign that I'm starting to recover from the whole incident.

Anna then asked me whether I want sweets or not to cheer me up, but even though I said it was okay, she vanished almost in a second and reappeared out of nowhere holding a tin of bubblegum that Veena and May got for her I think. It was supposed to make your tongue turn into outrageous shades of acidic colours, and the small gang that gathered around my table were real excited about it. Everybody wanted a share, but Anna dear wanted to give me the first outta it.

So, Anna and Veena were working hard to try and open the tin, using rulers, zips, anything accesible. When it was finally opened, they were asking me to choose, but though I was so sure I wanted a green tongue so I could let go of my hair, find a long white robe from somewhere and impersonate Sadako to scare the living daylights out of that teacher, I didn't in the end, as I didn't want to give the other teachers in the school a scare with my green tongue. So the alternative that Anna offered me - a Blackcurrant Sugus. And it's ok Anna, I don't mind that it'd melted =)

Actually, the main reason why I cried wasn't fully because of what happened in Physics earlier.

Firstly, I cried 'cos of rage. I couldn't believe a teacher can actually find fault with me in that way.

Second, I was pissed. About everything that's happening between HER and me.

Third, I was depressed. Over family stuff.

Fourth, I was upset. It's stupid and weird that it had to happen at a time like this, when we're both in the same team for debate. You have your pride, but so do I. I won't hail to you like how I usually do the last time. You want war? Bring it on. 'Cos I won't surrender so easily this time round. I feel so weak and pathetic 'cos I realized I'm always shedding my precious tears for YOU. But guess what?

You weren't there when I broke down today.

You didn't approach me for anything at all.

You didn't try to make things right.

I know I said I didn't want to talk to you, not like I wanted to at a time like that, but if I were you, I would had set aside all those differences we had and try and be there for you first.

Since you obviously don't think the same way, I guess this is it then, if this is how you want things to be.

Thinking back about all that, tears started to fall again without me wanting to.

I quickly wiped them off as tried to clean my specs with my blazer, but failed miserably.

Not long after, Anna came running along with the cloth thingy that's specially used to clean the specs' lens. If you have specs, you'll know what I mean. I didn't even ask for it but Anna being the attentive one just came along to give me that for me to use. I was seriously touched, really. Thanks so much Anna. For being such a good friend and scandal partner. Every single thing you did for me today, I really do appreciate so much. I love you darling.

Still, I couldn't hold those tears in.

Then comes my Pikachu aka Ah Yuan. She came and saw me tearing up, and told me not to cry. Unfortunately, I did again but she was there, so I stopped as quickly as I started. I love you too budak.

I love all of you that were there for me even if I looked miserably horribly weak and pathetic then.

To the aforementioned names above, a million thanks.

To Azri, Cassan, Vivian, Fairuz, Sarah, Jia Ying, Raja - to you guys too.

And if there are any names I missed out, I'm grateful to every one of you for being there for me.

The time during Mathematics class, which till now I could still hear the applause from the beloved of 4 Science 1. Thanks guys. That really motivated me a lot, after that incident and me breaking down and all :')

Now, back to the teaching methods.

Let me first mention that Miss Norhafiza here had studied in UK for the past THREE years majoring in Physics.

She has an accent.

But her English is seriously SO THE POWDERFUL man.

Just to list one of the many examples, to her 'situation' is spelt as 'situasion'.

Example two :

This happened yesterday by the way.

Veena : Teacher, how many kilometres is one mile?
Miss Norhafiza : I think it's 100km..no wait, it's 100m..or was it 1000m? *starting drawing imaginary figures in the air and counting with her fingers* *long pause* I don't know.
Leonie : Right..So teacher, is it alright if you change the miles part to kilometres or metres so we could answer the question? As miles isn't in our syllabus yet?
Miss Norhafiza : No, I won't do that.
Leonie : ..uhuh. Then can we skip this question for the time being and get back to this later?
Miss Norhafiza : No you can't do that either. Your reference books should have this information. Go and search for the answer yourself. It's self-discovery. No point in me giving you the answer as well.
Inner Leonie : You don't even know the answer. Bitch.

I honestly think she's incapable of being a teacher even.

And now, Leonie shall now gladly take up the new job of making sure this teacher fails her practical in this school.

Hell yeah, won't she have a time of her life from now on.

*****To Azri and Anna-chan, we shall paint and draw one fine day, and for a long time too. Senpai and senpai ;)

*****First round of debate is tomorrow.

I'm damn freak nervous actually.

Wish me luck.

Hopefully you'll see good news here after tomorrow afternoon.

Till then. *fingers crossed*

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It’s not an English name I came up with for myself. My mother is indeed a genius in coming up with such a splendid name for me. Although my name has been unfortunately mutilated (nicknames are excluded) over the past years, full credits to my mum for my current identity.

I’m certainly looking forward to changing the word ‘patient’ to ‘survivor’! If you’re interested to read about my journey in battling lymphoma, you can click here to proceed to my cancer blog.

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Languages, music, fashion, photography, cultures, dance, literature, writing; just about anything, really. The arts truly intrigue me, especially thought-provoking pieces. Of course, the arts play a major role in inspiring me in my everyday life.

I don’t have a favourite genre – I read any book that interests me!

I am a trained right-hander from young, since apparently being left-handed is considered ‘wrong’. Basically, I’m ambidextrous! No wonder I find it easier to air guitar using my left hand than my right; I simply relate to the arts than subjects that deal with logical thinking better, too.

A stubborn Bull I am, too. I abhor being rushed. I prefer doing matters at my own reasonable pace. I don’t particularly like changes in my routine, but I can adapt quite easily. I’m a very practical person as well. I enjoy the beautiful things in life, but that doesn’t make me shun ugliness at all. Besides, it all depends on how one perceives beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder!

Still am, but I’m slowly learning to accept imperfection into my life. Also, I’m doing my best to erase the many expectations I have so I could one day master the art of letting go and freeing myself to simple happiness and joy.

Compared to before, I’m less dramatic nowadays. Language-wise, I attempt to blog flawlessly in English and speak proper English online with my peers. Call me a Grammar Nazi all you want, but that’s how I roll. I only converse in perfect English in formal situations and during my dramatic outbursts. Otherwise, I’m absolutely capable of communicating like the average Malaysian!

It’s a different issue altogether when you’re forced to learn for the sake of getting good grades, though. Other than that, I’m open to new information and knowledge anytime! I especially would like to learn more languages and pick up new musical instruments.

…are just some of the things I would love to do in the near future, hopefully!

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What seemed to be a usual morning, except for the fact that HER and me aren't on talking terms, turned totally upside down in just a matter of seconds.

During the start of Physics in school..

Monitor : Good morning, Miss Norhafiza.
Class : Good morning, Miss Norhafiza.
Miss Norhafiza : Good morning, class. Let's read the prayer.
*Muslims in class starts reciting the prayer*
Miss Norhafiza : Have a seat please. *pause* Nak belajar ke tak hari ni?
Student A and B : Nak..(in a monotonous tone)
Leonie : Tak nak..(in a JOKING manner)
Miss Norhafiza : Kalau tak nak, keluar dari kelas sekarang.
Leonie : *stares in disbelief*
Miss Norhafiza : I mean it, get out of the class NOW. *points to the door*
Leonie : *thinks twice about stepping out from the lab, but decides not to as the class will be doing an experiment concerning the ticker timer later on* But teacher, I was just.. *wanted to say joking but knowing how much trouble she'll get into it for it*
Miss Norhafiza : Joking? But I'm serious.
Leonie : *tries to think of a witty comeback but was too shocked by the sudden change in mood of the teacher, so fails miserably and just decides to say..* I'm sorry, teacher.
Inner Leonie says : Fuck yourself, BITCH. Even if you're having PMS for all I care, you don't have the right to pick on me like that. The whole class knew I was joking, so why couldn't you just let it go and ignore it? Sensitive moody BITCH.
Miss Norhafiza : *starts going ballistic all of a sudden* The non-Muslims in this class, don't you have any respect for us while we're reciting the prayer?! Even if you're not a Muslim, you should be having your own prayer to recite and not talking and playing around while we're reciting the prayer. Don't you have any respect for us?! I really don't want to scold you all and I hate showing you my ugly face, so please, show me some respect!
Inner Leonie : UGH! I wasn't even making the slightest sound while you guys are reciting the prayer! So why does it have to be ME who gets victimized?? Bitch bitch bitch bitch BITCH!!!

(Song playing in Leonie's head throughout the whole Physics lesson - Family Reunion by Blink 182. Note : I don't mean any of the lyrics in the song literally, but just swearing using the words from it. Why can't I post the lyrics here? Well, go Google it up and you'll know the reason why. Eheh.)

I was sarcastic throughout the entire lesson, and I showed my displeasure clearly to the teacher whenever I could. Hence, Leonie sincerely apologizes if any of my 4 Science 1 peeps got offended by Leonie's tone while she's speaking to you. She totally doesn't mean it, only maybe towards that same teacher of course.

I can honestly tell you, my blood was literally BOILING during the whole lesson. I couldn't really concentrate that much, and I did tried to focus on doing the stupid report, but it was then I realized I started getting all teary.

Couldn't wait for the class to be over, and while the class wished her at the end of the lesson, I didn't even bother looking at her nor wished her and stormed out of class right past her. I couldn't care less anymore about getting blacklisted or anything, since I had always been paranoid with the whole demerit system and me being a perfectionist (and a freaking prefect at that), doesn't like being in the bad books of any teacher.

I shall gladly elaborate more about her profound teaching methods later on which made me dislike her in the first place.

All there is to this story after I left the Physics' lab, I fast-walked back to class and was the first to arrive. I sat down at my place alone, and the incident from Physics class earlier left me quite scarred. Normal for a goody-two-shoes like me in school.

Min Wen and Jia Xin came up to class not long after and Min Wen approached me, asking me whether I was alright or not.

It was then I started cursing in Chinese and ranting and raising my voice and dissatisfaction on that teacher. I went on and on and on..

And then, I started crying. In rage.

I was so freaking frustrated with life at that juncture. I just broke down.

Min Wen was super shocked I cried all of a sudden, and tried to calm me down.

I just cried harder.

The rest of my class peeps came up soon, and saw me in that pathetic state, and were persuading me to stop crying and that it wasn't worth crying over the Physics teacher. Evonne was saying that she might had forgotten all about it already and that it was her being moody.

I was kinda ignoring the earlier comments, as I was crying so hard, I couldn't concentrate on what they were saying.

All I could feel was May rubbing my back non-stop, showing that she is there for me.

Then, I felt somebody who hugged me from behind.

"Leonie, don't cry anymore.."
Whoever that voice could belong to if not my darling Anna Sabrina.

There was something about her voice that I could feel that pinch of sincerity, her caring self being there for me, making sure that I'm alright.

I just turned around and hugged her.

I didn't want to let go. There was something about Anna's hug that soothed me, somehow.

"Leonie, don't cry anymore, or I'm gonna cry too.."

"I'm so sorry Anna..Don't cry..I'll try to stop for you.."
I then quickly forced a smile to try and create more happy hormones in my body so that I'll try to stop crying naturally.

It was at that part I heard my friends talking about the weirdness, craziness, madness, etc. of the Physics practical teacher when I got to one part where Tasha or Soske, I can't make out the voice that time, saying that the teacher was having PMS and somebody should hand her a pad.

I then decided to step in at this point and said, "I don't think she's having PMS, guys. Poor thing, she's probably having her menopause too early."

Some laughed, some were shocked at what I said, but in a good way, as they take it as a sign that I'm starting to recover from the whole incident.

Anna then asked me whether I want sweets or not to cheer me up, but even though I said it was okay, she vanished almost in a second and reappeared out of nowhere holding a tin of bubblegum that Veena and May got for her I think. It was supposed to make your tongue turn into outrageous shades of acidic colours, and the small gang that gathered around my table were real excited about it. Everybody wanted a share, but Anna dear wanted to give me the first outta it.

So, Anna and Veena were working hard to try and open the tin, using rulers, zips, anything accesible. When it was finally opened, they were asking me to choose, but though I was so sure I wanted a green tongue so I could let go of my hair, find a long white robe from somewhere and impersonate Sadako to scare the living daylights out of that teacher, I didn't in the end, as I didn't want to give the other teachers in the school a scare with my green tongue. So the alternative that Anna offered me - a Blackcurrant Sugus. And it's ok Anna, I don't mind that it'd melted =)

Actually, the main reason why I cried wasn't fully because of what happened in Physics earlier.

Firstly, I cried 'cos of rage. I couldn't believe a teacher can actually find fault with me in that way.

Second, I was pissed. About everything that's happening between HER and me.

Third, I was depressed. Over family stuff.

Fourth, I was upset. It's stupid and weird that it had to happen at a time like this, when we're both in the same team for debate. You have your pride, but so do I. I won't hail to you like how I usually do the last time. You want war? Bring it on. 'Cos I won't surrender so easily this time round. I feel so weak and pathetic 'cos I realized I'm always shedding my precious tears for YOU. But guess what?

You weren't there when I broke down today.

You didn't approach me for anything at all.

You didn't try to make things right.

I know I said I didn't want to talk to you, not like I wanted to at a time like that, but if I were you, I would had set aside all those differences we had and try and be there for you first.

Since you obviously don't think the same way, I guess this is it then, if this is how you want things to be.

Thinking back about all that, tears started to fall again without me wanting to.

I quickly wiped them off as tried to clean my specs with my blazer, but failed miserably.

Not long after, Anna came running along with the cloth thingy that's specially used to clean the specs' lens. If you have specs, you'll know what I mean. I didn't even ask for it but Anna being the attentive one just came along to give me that for me to use. I was seriously touched, really. Thanks so much Anna. For being such a good friend and scandal partner. Every single thing you did for me today, I really do appreciate so much. I love you darling.

Still, I couldn't hold those tears in.

Then comes my Pikachu aka Ah Yuan. She came and saw me tearing up, and told me not to cry. Unfortunately, I did again but she was there, so I stopped as quickly as I started. I love you too budak.

I love all of you that were there for me even if I looked miserably horribly weak and pathetic then.

To the aforementioned names above, a million thanks.

To Azri, Cassan, Vivian, Fairuz, Sarah, Jia Ying, Raja - to you guys too.

And if there are any names I missed out, I'm grateful to every one of you for being there for me.

The time during Mathematics class, which till now I could still hear the applause from the beloved of 4 Science 1. Thanks guys. That really motivated me a lot, after that incident and me breaking down and all :')

Now, back to the teaching methods.

Let me first mention that Miss Norhafiza here had studied in UK for the past THREE years majoring in Physics.

She has an accent.

But her English is seriously SO THE POWDERFUL man.

Just to list one of the many examples, to her 'situation' is spelt as 'situasion'.

Example two :

This happened yesterday by the way.

Veena : Teacher, how many kilometres is one mile?
Miss Norhafiza : I think it's 100km..no wait, it's 100m..or was it 1000m? *starting drawing imaginary figures in the air and counting with her fingers* *long pause* I don't know.
Leonie : Right..So teacher, is it alright if you change the miles part to kilometres or metres so we could answer the question? As miles isn't in our syllabus yet?
Miss Norhafiza : No, I won't do that.
Leonie : ..uhuh. Then can we skip this question for the time being and get back to this later?
Miss Norhafiza : No you can't do that either. Your reference books should have this information. Go and search for the answer yourself. It's self-discovery. No point in me giving you the answer as well.
Inner Leonie : You don't even know the answer. Bitch.

I honestly think she's incapable of being a teacher even.

And now, Leonie shall now gladly take up the new job of making sure this teacher fails her practical in this school.

Hell yeah, won't she have a time of her life from now on.

*****To Azri and Anna-chan, we shall paint and draw one fine day, and for a long time too. Senpai and senpai ;)

*****First round of debate is tomorrow.

I'm damn freak nervous actually.

Wish me luck.

Hopefully you'll see good news here after tomorrow afternoon.

Till then. *fingers crossed*

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