©leilockheart.

• I have no idea what's going on in Facebook, I haven't logged in for more than a week now. I apologise for my lack of responses recently.
  
• Paranoia is this close to killing me. Nobody is expecting me to do extremely well for SPM, but I expect myself to.
  
• My mother believes that me setting high standards for myself is one of the factors of me getting cancer. I need to be more careful with my thoughts and emotions. It's hard though when SPM is like, next week.
  
• I haven't learnt shit from the past two years of being in Upper Secondary. I was more enlightened in the past two months than the past two years by self-studying.
  
• Honestly, I don't know what the hell I'd been doing before all this cancer shit happened.
  
• Actually, come to think of it, I do. School, school, sleep, school, school, school, tuition, school. Oh yeah, have I mentioned school?
  
• I regret not taking my studies seriously till now.
  
• My hormones are fucked up no thanks to the oral hormone meds I have been taking throughout treatment. I have more mood swings than the number of times it has been raining this week.
  
• I have every intention to continue my post-SPM activity list after SPM.
• I also have every intention to make my Wordpress blog my private online diary.
  

All the best to all of us fifth formers in Malaysia sitting for SPM starting from next Tuesday onwards. See you in December!

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It’s not an English name I came up with for myself. My mother is indeed a genius in coming up with such a splendid name for me. Although my name has been unfortunately mutilated (nicknames are excluded) over the past years, full credits to my mum for my current identity.

I’m certainly looking forward to changing the word ‘patient’ to ‘survivor’! If you’re interested to read about my journey in battling lymphoma, you can click here to proceed to my cancer blog.

Ironic, I know; this blog is mainly pink instead. I like all colours actually, but I find myself having an affinity to the colour green. In fact, I can safely say that green is my soul colour.

Languages, music, fashion, photography, cultures, dance, literature, writing; just about anything, really. The arts truly intrigue me, especially thought-provoking pieces. Of course, the arts play a major role in inspiring me in my everyday life.

I don’t have a favourite genre – I read any book that interests me!

I am a trained right-hander from young, since apparently being left-handed is considered ‘wrong’. Basically, I’m ambidextrous! No wonder I find it easier to air guitar using my left hand than my right; I simply relate to the arts than subjects that deal with logical thinking better, too.

A stubborn Bull I am, too. I abhor being rushed. I prefer doing matters at my own reasonable pace. I don’t particularly like changes in my routine, but I can adapt quite easily. I’m a very practical person as well. I enjoy the beautiful things in life, but that doesn’t make me shun ugliness at all. Besides, it all depends on how one perceives beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder!

Still am, but I’m slowly learning to accept imperfection into my life. Also, I’m doing my best to erase the many expectations I have so I could one day master the art of letting go and freeing myself to simple happiness and joy.

Compared to before, I’m less dramatic nowadays. Language-wise, I attempt to blog flawlessly in English and speak proper English online with my peers. Call me a Grammar Nazi all you want, but that’s how I roll. I only converse in perfect English in formal situations and during my dramatic outbursts. Otherwise, I’m absolutely capable of communicating like the average Malaysian!

It’s a different issue altogether when you’re forced to learn for the sake of getting good grades, though. Other than that, I’m open to new information and knowledge anytime! I especially would like to learn more languages and pick up new musical instruments.

…are just some of the things I would love to do in the near future, hopefully!

the basic rules apply. If you respect me, I’ll respect you. If you happen to be someone who has low EQ skills, I’ll try to be tolerant but my patience is definitely limited. I’m observant when it comes to human behaviour. I’m a person of many opinions, but I don’t voice them out unless I trust you enough; I’m very honest and candid when it comes to the people I can trust. Even though I trust very easily, not everybody can prove that they’re all that nice. Hurt me, and I’ll only defend myself if necessary. Hurt my family or my friends – you won’t find me holding back.

Is there anything else you would like to know about me?
Throw me your questions and/or doubts here! I honestly have nothing to hide, so you’ll expect the truth and nothing but the truth.

It’s only how I phrase my answers that you’ll have to be aware of.
Or…you can click hereto go back to reading!

©leilockheart.

• I have no idea what's going on in Facebook, I haven't logged in for more than a week now. I apologise for my lack of responses recently.
  
• Paranoia is this close to killing me. Nobody is expecting me to do extremely well for SPM, but I expect myself to.
  
• My mother believes that me setting high standards for myself is one of the factors of me getting cancer. I need to be more careful with my thoughts and emotions. It's hard though when SPM is like, next week.
  
• I haven't learnt shit from the past two years of being in Upper Secondary. I was more enlightened in the past two months than the past two years by self-studying.
  
• Honestly, I don't know what the hell I'd been doing before all this cancer shit happened.
  
• Actually, come to think of it, I do. School, school, sleep, school, school, school, tuition, school. Oh yeah, have I mentioned school?
  
• I regret not taking my studies seriously till now.
  
• My hormones are fucked up no thanks to the oral hormone meds I have been taking throughout treatment. I have more mood swings than the number of times it has been raining this week.
  
• I have every intention to continue my post-SPM activity list after SPM.
• I also have every intention to make my Wordpress blog my private online diary.
  

All the best to all of us fifth formers in Malaysia sitting for SPM starting from next Tuesday onwards. See you in December!

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