Not like I mind. Haha.

Still have all those holiday worksheets to do. They honestly can't let us kids off for a nice short break even for a moment. Ugh.

May is practically a life-saver for telling me that Puan Aerma cancelled that experiment with the eureka can and all. I ALMOST did the PEKA and the practical for it! Gawd, thank you so much Zea mays. Phew!

I have tons of Interact reports that aren't done either. Since entering secondary school, I never get to escape from report-writing. Seriously. LOL.

Need to email Manmit the format AGAIN, since Hotmail is currently bullshitting me by notifying me that I'm unable to send the very same email, FIVE times already! Oh gosh, this is not a good omen.

Holidays had been boring. Very. Boring.

So far, I'm stuck at home half the time with only the PC to accompany me, my stupid homework that I'm just so lazy to complete, and me, having such a short attention span, can hardly concentrate on anything in particular till it's done.

That means, if I actually manage to publish a blog entry, it's a huge effort already from me! Hahah!

I still want to change my blogskin. Am starting from scratch.

I may start a new fashion and photography blog.

Gawd, I can seriously laugh at myself for typing the above sentence.

Remember readers! Short attention span! I can't cope with updating this blog frequently, and my other space as well, and I'm actually thinking of another blog?

Harharharharhar. Since when did I have such a peculiar sense of humour?

I suck at Physics.

Wonder how those who are fasting are doing. I know I can't fast. Not strong-willed enough. If I ever fast, I think I can cope with no food, but no water? I'll definitely fall sick in less than a day. Don't want to try for now. Maybe one day for a good cause. =) All the best you all! Raya's in less than a month. ;)

I miss my classmates. My schoolmates. I certainly don't miss the homework! And waking up early! Like duh.

I been tagged by a couple of people! Christina, Cheryl, and anybody that I currently can't remember, sorry for missing you out! I'm getting lazier to do tags, but will try. XD

I realized this is a very random update.

Oh well, till I can actually get my homework done, bear with me.

Cheers!

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Yes, yes, yes!
FINALLY!!
I brought down that *insert vulgarities here* big-headed Dr Zombie dude!
See the white flag?
Muahahahahahahahahah!
Too bad my bee-yuh-ti-full shining sparkling silver Sunflower trophy can't be seen,
I print-screened it while it was gleaming. :(
Oh well,
I still won!
Muahahahahahahahahahahahah!
Credits to kor for the tips!
Since my brains got carelessly eaten once by a lame noobie zombie!
Stupid zombies.
And this note from the Zombies has to be the cutest and most humourous yet!


The music video is darn cute and funny too!

Those who are interested can search it up in Youtube! :D

By the way, the best part is just coming up..

I FINALLY GOT MY ZEN GARDEN.
I think only kor here can understand why I'm so excited about having my very own Zen Garden.
I'm always pestering him to let me take care of his Zen Garden plants whenever I could,
so yearh.
It's quite empty now,
with two Marigolds as starters,
but I'll make it!
It'll be as nice as kor's,
maybe nicer!
:DD


*****Twinnie reopened Owl Lee!

Happy happy happy me. ;)

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I really wasn't interested in Plants vs. Zombies till kor taught me the basics, and the rest is history.

Seriously, the plants are so annoyingly cute and freaking ah-dorable, I swear that's what made me play in the first place.

Kor already has a pretty happy-looking Zen Garden, which can only be obtained after the Adventure mode is completed.

Yeah, that's what got me hooked!

In my mission to obtain a nice and peaceful Zen Garden with annoyingly cute and freakingly ah-dorable plants, I must kill Zombiez that aim to eat my brainz as quickly as I could and get loads of moolah so that I can fill my future Zen Garden with annoyingly cute and freakingly ah-dorable plants.

*****I must kick myself to reply Twinnie's email. Seriously, there's so many distractions on the Internet. Ugh.

Bear with me, Twinnie. D:

PS : Here's a much happier and random post for my supermodel friend, Miss Karyn Ong, before my long and sad entries bore her out. ;)

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"Time is a dressmaker specializing in alterations."
~Faith Baldwin.~
-Change, ©Teiiko.-
To be honest, I'm a person who will be uncomfortable with changes to daily routines, as bored of it like I had always complained.

This brings me back to me conducting a self-reflecting session with myself.

This year so far, had been a rollercoaster ride. Reality after reality crashes down on me. What I had always thought was right all along, that thought vanished not long after the realization of it being oh so wrong.

Departures had been far too often this year. It was hard adjusting myself to the absence of many of those I had known.

And I'm not only talking about them people who are just in places miles away, but those who had departed for the other world that awaits them after their days of living ended.

Though we do not harbour close relationships, but they had inspired me to be part of who I am today.

Bless them all. May they be resting in peace.

Also, the close ties I used to have with some people, over the course of sixteen years being on planet Earth, had slowly faded away, just like that.

On the other hand, I had been blessed with new friends, and I'm honestly lucky to have know them, and actually be a friend to them.

Closer ties are formed, while the ties of the past?

Let it be, let it be.

I had made an effort to reform these specific ties, but unfortunately, it takes two hands to clap. I can't do anything about them if they choose not to.

I did my part, and I guess..that's all that matters.

And being a sixteen year old teenager, full of angst and raging hormones with frequent mood swings, and the emotional rush due to this part of the process called growing up.

I had been told that I had changed a lot from my kinder days, thanks to my mum who had..kindly enlightened me on this matter.

I know I'm not as hardworking like before. I know I'm not as dilligent as before. I know I'm not as rebellious as before. I know I'm not that sensible like before.

Yes, and I have always been aware of this, dear mother.

But, as much as I would like to stay like the child of the past, like the young daughter of a toddler you used to know, I just can't seem to.

For my alien behaviour of the present, I am truly, deeply, and sincerely sorry, mother.

I only can hope that you can bear with me, for I am trying my very best to change for the better.

All those seemingly harsh words you had been telling me at certain intervals of the year during my weakest moments, when I felt that the overwhelming sadness, frustration and uselessness can swallow me into nothingness, it will be then you would speak out.

You will always end your speech like this, after reducing me to tears and sniffles.

"Think about what I said, and see whether I'm right. I'm very disappointed in you."
If the very few people that I can safely regard as close friends would know about me, the first would be that I think utterly too much.

Ironic, huh.

But as I type this, I can only pray that my mum would soon realize that her daughter is only growing up, and bless her, as she is constantly worrying about so many other issues already, may she not bother herself with more upsets and disappointments with mere little me.

Though that will be a hard thing to do, for she's a mother, how can she not be concerned with the mental, physical, emotional and spiritual developments of one of her children?

I need to work on altering those of me that is a hindrance to many others.

And also, to myself.

To change, why not change altogether?

I had made a lot of changes this year anyway.

I think those who linger around me and personally know me from the inside out, though not fully, would notice these changes, big or small.

Once again, it is undeniable, there are some parts of me which I am unable to change, that is embedded into this soul who chose this body as her abode.

If there are some individuals who are not satisfied with parts of me that I am comfortable with and can proudly say it's truly me, I can only say that it's a clash of personalities, star signs and different preferences in life.

I cannot force them to like me, and they cannot force me to be all chummy with them as well.

That's something everyone, and I do mean everyone, should be aware of.

There's no use changing the important parts of you for the liking of others.

That's why peer pressure is so common among society, no matter which country on this planet we share with we're talking about.

Yet, change is unavoidable.

*****I need those changes, starting off with this space of mine.

Maybe a drastic haircut.

But most definitely, in my duty to be a filial daughter.

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Yes, as the title goes.

I owe all of my loyal readers, aka my darling friends and those who are actually bothered to update themselves on my boring daily routine, what's been going on in my side of the world.

So, as most of you should know by now, I went to Melaka and KL for, let's say, a short family vacation on Wednesday and Thursday.

It rocked, really. Hard to describe with just words, in fact.

Funny how I really enjoyed just two days with my whole family, with everybody there, just spending time, sitting down, having a meal together, and talk just about anything and everything under the sky.

Honestly, it's rare to get the whole family together like this.

I really appreciate the moments we spent together, for I think I really needed a break from the usual environment of school and tuition.

Melaka was awesome. I got to splurge on five new books there, and I had already finished one of them, which is a really, really good book. Thank goodness mumsie managed to see it and show it to me, or I would had never noticed it, and would had gone on with the earlier plan of buying the latest two books by Lisi Harrison in the Clique series, which I had been collecting since it first came out in stores. Oh well, they would have to wait. (:

KL was just as good. Managed to chomp on a lot of food there. Haha, with a glutton like me, that's normal, seriously. But hey, who doesn't live for good food? :3

And the best part is..


I love that table, somehow.

I'm going to be called crazy, but whatever. I heart that study table! Obssessed much? xD

Oh yeah, as to the fact of why I even had a study table to work on, daddykins, mumsie and I shared a room at HELP Residence, so that we can spend more time with kor. Heh. It was pretty cool, despite having just a shard of what was previously a mirror in the bathroom and the spoilt lights. Not forgetting the mattresses that were rock hard. Trust me, I am not exaggerating.

I'm quite blessed to have learnt something from all the Girl Guide camps I had been to, from sleeping on very dry ground of the field in a wet and undried tent, to sleeping on tables, cement floors, staircases, corridors, tables, and canteen benches. Just as smooth, and hard.

So, I totally chose to gave up the mattress to my dad, let him have the pillow, blanket and all, on the condition that I helped him move the mattress to the floor.

I took the sleeping bag instead and slept on the bed that had its mattress removed.

So basically, I slept on just a wooden surface of the bed, or the papan, as my parents call it.

When we all woke up the next morning..

Daddykins : Eh, backache la.
Mumsie : Yalor, same.
Daddykins : The mattresses are really rock solid hard, like papan.
Mumsie : Wonder how our son manages to survive such a mattress.
Leonie : *secretly feels grateful that she had survived worst conditions*
Mumsie : Girl ah, massage my back for me please.
Inner Leonie : Where's Jia Ying when I need her.

Left around 3pm. Plan to get something from Subway failed, since I was so full from lunch before. I had to finish up my mum's and kor's as well. And Azri actually said I'm skinny. As if! I eat too much. Haha.

And, fulfilling the part of a spoilt baby sister, I cried, AGAIN, just as we left the hostel and said bye to kor.

Boo.

Amazingly, we managed to reach home, in 3 hours plus.

And my dad didn't speed.

Wow indeed.

It's a miracle I managed to climb out of bed today and go to school like usual.

Missed Jia Ying and Guppy a lot! Had a family reunion with them at the back! :D

Miss the crazy classmates as well. Lol.

And the nice people whom I sit with now at the canteen during recess!

A lot of other people in fact.

Gosh, I really need to stop all that negative war of thoughts in my head and start being more optimistic.

Things aren't so bad.

If I can ever see things in a different light.

Step by step then. I'll get there.

One day. (:

Might be updating a lil' more often now. ;)

To Naomi and Ozri, you got your update. :]

PS : Thanks much to Naomi and Natchie. Khai and Azri. And of course, my Twinnie. You all know what you did, and I'm truly grateful. To those who care for me as well, my most sincere thanks to y'all as well.

PPS : Cai Ling's letter made me smile ever so easily. I love her.

PPPS : A second PS is already too much, what more a third. But tuition today was fun. Who knew dichotomy keys are so much fun? And drawing on Pikamon's hand, fooling around with MaoMao, discussing with Yi Shian about work, and having Khai and Guppy there..Bio tuition now never fails to bore me, with these people around. =) Mr Kung actually praised my work, for the first time. Ever.

PPPPS : Promise, last one here. We learnt about genus and species today. Zymase = Zea mays. XD

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At times I really do wonder, should I be replying your texts,
even though it's school-related?
You could be asking some other people.
Why choose to make me think about all those times again by texting me instead?

I'll be honest, once more.

It already hurts seeing you in the company of others and not just the both of us like we used to.

Now, you're trying to make your way in when I'm with my own friends?

Please.
I'm leaving you alone.
Just cut off all ties with me now,
can't you?
Spare me from the memories.
Please.
I have no intention of being friends with you anymore.

News spread quickly you know.
I heard what you said about me.
And it's funny that people said that you won't ever bitch about me.
That you were so loyal.
That you were the most awesome friend I could ever have.
Well, explain this.
Bitched about once more,
I lost count.
It's all a lie.

It's ironic how the two of my closest friends,
are not my closest anymore.
In fact,
they are each other's closest now.

We had that relationship once.
Now, you choose to share it with her.

I don't need it anyway.

It's stupid still that I still feel down about this.
I just can't seem to let go.

Well, let me tell you the reason.
I treasure my friendships a whole damn lot.
I won't ever go against my friends.
'Cos they just are.
Friends are the ones who would comfort me when I'm at my worst,
as I would for them.
Friends are the one who would share my joy, whether minor or major,
as I would for them.
Friends would appreciate me as a friend,
as I would to them.
Friends will respect me and my interests,
as I will about theirs.
Friends will always be friends,
they won't ever judge them.

If you choose to get on my wrong side,
it's over.
Unless you're going to be totally sincere in apologizing.

And change.
Yes, change.

I admit.
I have my own flaws.
My mistakes.
My differences.
My opinions.

I'll respect yours if you respect mine.

As if you don't have your own flaws.
Your mistakes.
Your differences.
Your opinions.

And to clarify things,
I do remember all the good times.
Too clearly, in fact,
it rubs more salt to the wound,
adds fuel to the fire.

You were there when the fact that I might move to another state in an utterly unhappy condition last year came about.
I chose to tell you, and only you.
You were there during all those times when some people misunderstood our intentions,
and we survived through all that.
You were there during events,
when we would spend more time together,
even if we were already spending all of our time together.
You were there during late night calls,
we would talk like there's no end.

We were there when you were trying to get over a certain someone.
We were there when we were sharing our own personal problems.
We were there when we got criticized for our work.
We were there during those nerve-wrecking moments.
We were there doing what girls just do.

I was told to remember all of the good times I spent with you,
and to actually make the effort to reconcile with you.

Well, I'm sorry.
I can't do it.

Not with all the pretences and short-lived promises.
Never once fulfilled.

I did my part.
Don't bother replying.
If you do,
it's most probably all in the name of defending your own name,
instead of clearing things up.
And in the end,
I'll look like the bad guy once again!
Without fail!

I'm being super honest here.
What about you?

Jealous?
Frustrated?
Envious?
Disappointed?
Ashamed?

I felt them all.
All thanks to you.

Thank you very much.

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"It's time for us to do our part."
I am currently typing my blog post on Microsoft Word and not on Blogger just to avoid my mumsie from seeing me blogging instead of working on homework like I should. She’s pretty convinced that I’m working on one of my endless essays from school now.

In any case, 4SC1/2009 officiated our Say NO to Plastic Bags campaign today.

I have to say, I’m proud of each and every one of us who had all played a part in making this happen, from the cutting of letters to the designing, drawing and colouring of the posters, those cute little paper badges we made in the shape of a bag, the Powerpoint presentation, and of course, who can forget the DIY recycled, environmental-friendly cloth bags from old clothes and accessories.

From skipping a few classes here and there to work on our project in the hall, to doing bits and pieces with people sewing/colouring/painting/drawing/cutting during lessons, is all worthwhile.

Conflicts were unavoidable, but as a class, we were united.

And we promoted our campaign not only to those in the morning session, but also to the afternoon session kids.

Heck, we even went up on stage as a class to sing to Michael Jackson’s Heal The World, when I couldn’t had thought of anything better to do but to sing pretty loudly into the mike and act like a goody girl up there. Efforts of passing the mike to my other classmates were futile, as the wire was pretty limited to only a certain length of the stage. And when I did attempt to hand the mike over to a random classmate closest to me at that time, the mike gets pushed back at me, as I had apparently handed over the mike at the wrong time.

Note that a lot of us did not memorize the lyrics to the song.

I am guilty of that as well.

Oh well, what’s done’s done.

It was pretty fun while we were up there, excluding the fact that I was all shaky and croaking like a frog on stage.

And I know I won’t probably get to do such a thing again.

I actually had the guts to sing on stage, in front of the entire afternoon session, and I could had only done that with the support of my classmates right behind me, with the much needed company, and of course, not forgetting May and Liyana who were handling the laptop.

Gosh, I thank life for such an unexpected, yet pretty awesome experience.

I had fun today.

Hopefully my classmates feel the same way. (:

And of course, a big thank you to everyone and anyone who is supporting our campaign. Highly appreciated, and it’s something we can do to save the current condition of our planet. Mother Nature is obviously rebelling against us by causing the whole (A) H1N1 Influenza to happen worldwide, for we had caused her harm as well.

Man, we are in serious need of mutual understanding, respect, love and peace here.

If that’s ever possible to attain at an international level.

PS : I SWEAR I thought I saw Anna singing along with the rest of the choir from our class at the platform, smiling enthusiastically at me, like she always does.

Problem is, she was absent today as she was sick.

Aik. The girl may be sick, but I’m sure a part of her was there to sing with us. :]

Anna-chan, please take good care of yourself! More H2O, more rest!

And that goes to all of you who are feeling unwell, you got me?

*****Music class was pretty awesome, as per usual.

Puan Yew was busy apparently, so Music class was cancelled on a very last minute basis. I was actually worried that Puan Yew might be coming to class as usual, for I know she would either be commenting a lot on my singing, or she would be laughing non-stop and telling Eva and Natchie what happened. I think the latter is the most likely to happen. Lol.

Nobody minded, since we found it as a chance to talk, talk, talk, talk, talk and talk.

Thank you Eva for the piano scores! It’ll be safe with me, I can assure you that. Lol.

Thank you Jia Ying for reminding me to ask Eva to bring the piano scores. Forgetful me. Haha!

Thank you Natchie, for confiding in me. As a friend, I would do anything within my abilities to help you. Remember, SMILE SMILE SMILE! *hugs*

Scandal alert! I saw some pictures of Jaafar and *insert said human’s name here*, with Jaafar looking very Shasha! XD *evil laugh*

*****Jia Ying : Harabuchi is hyper la today.
Guppy : Memang pun.
Jia Ying : When harabuchi is emo, we all are hyper. When she’s hyper, we all are emo.

So true. Well said, Jia Ying. Also known as the girl who made my right hand into her blank canvas for her to scribble and draw on.

Fine, so I made her draw some of them.

Hey, I was bored.

Don’t blame me.

I can’t seem to wash the ink off my hand though.

Haha! Then again, I can always make her draw some more tomorrow! ;)

Goodnight world!

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Yada yada, I'm so freaking bored.

Have class later. Wonder if I can stay awake.

I'm updating my blog using Liyana's laptop! Thank you Liyana! (:

I seriously have no idea what else to blog about.

Oh yeah! We're doing this Powerpoint presentation for next Monday, and it's looking good! Hopefully it'll have the desired impact on the students and teachers XD

Ashikin is here! Haha. Random.

Going to Singapore tomorrow! Hahahahahahahahahaha!

Okay, very random.

And yes! Hopefully Anna-chan gets better soon! Rest well! And play your piano!

Miss me everyone! Not going to school tomorrow! :P

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"Music class never fails to bring me cheer and smiles. Today's just brighten up my totally lifeless day. Liyana, Jia Ying and I totally were out of this world, or maybe more to Liyana and me, as we got some really good ideas on our Powerpoint presentation! Can't wait to share with the class, and am seriously hoping for some positive feedback! Thanks to Puan Yew, Natchie, and Eva who all contributed ideas to us! Haha, they all rock. And Puan Yew said I'm a skeleton teddy bear. Hmmph. Eva said I'm very bad, directly translated from Chinese! LOL. The bunny ears are for you teacher, in return of your name for me!"
"Reading Ash's comment on considering journalism. I had thought of it, and it's in my list of career possiblities after SPM. But what makes you think I should consider journalism in particular? Haha. And reading her tweets made my day! ;D I am ok, dear Twin! Do not worry. Lol. Hope you're alright as well!"
"My eyes were tearing up throughout today's English class after listening to Bob Carlistle's Butterfly Kisses. I heard the song many times, but had never bothered to listen to the exact lyrics. Tons of flashbacks then, I felt really emotional."
"Something I learnt this year -
life is full of departures and leavings."

"To Fio, get well soon please!
And to anybody else who are sick!
H1N1 is getting quite serious here in JB,
and this ain't a good time to be falling sick at all.
Drink loads of water,
rest earlier and sleep more!"

"To Natch,
I'm always here for you if you want to talk.
But for the time being,
don't message me.
Since apparently I didn't receive your texts at all.
Damn DiGi.
Try MSN if you need to contact me,
anytime!
I'll get back to you ay-sap.
Please don't worry so much,
if you need somewhere to channel all that stuff you think so much about,
I'm available okay?
Cheer up!
You are my Little Miss Smiley!
I can't be smiley if you aren't!
(:
*hugs*"

"And yes Izzat.
I finally saw the light.
Thank you for enlightening me.
No pun intended.
Haha."

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Is this lady here.
Fortunately,
she's colour blind.

Being a Malaysian, Yasmin Ahmad definitely plays an important role in conserving that last bit of unity and harmony between the people of different races, religions and cultures in Malaysia, that is very rare to see nowadays.

Not knowing her personally, I can't really say much about her character, for that would be assumptions on my part.

But she, who had dedicated her life to enlightening us the greatness of being a colour blind citizen, had done so through her movies and adverts.


From Sepet to Gubra,


Mukhsin to Muallaf,


Rabun to Talentime.
And her well-acclaimed ads, of course. All over Youtube.

And all of them works of Yasmin Ahmad aim to convey the same message.

Family.
Friendship.
Unity.
Harmony.
Love.

I think, these are the crucial five words that are compulsory in the success and the peace of a country.

Malaysia is somewhere there, but of course, there's always room for improvement.

For gawd's sake, Malaysia freaking banned Muallaf from premiering in Malaysian cinemas because of the controversial issues it portrays.

It just can't be denied that Yasmin Ahmad's works only speak the truth, and nothing but the truth.

It's only whether we can stand up and accept this fact in our lives..or not.

Whether we can implement these values in our everyday routines..or not.

Ultimately, it's still up to us as Malaysians to work together to achieve and cement the status of 1Malaysia in our country.

Yasmin Ahmad did her part in making that first step for us, and by now we should be..alert enough to continue her legacy and make these values a reality.

Is it possible?

If you're a Malaysian reading this entry right now, I dare you to take up a pledge to be colour blind right now.

If you're not a Malaysian, and you know of Yasmin Ahmad and her work, uphold those values from wherever you are, and make this world a better place.

Tell your friends, family, anybody you know.

Because it takes the effort of many to make this a reality.

All the good values of the yesteryears, trying to be preserved by this one lady.

"Wise and witty."
"Beautiful from the inside and out."
Yasmin Ahmad.
1958 - 2009.

"You'll be deeply missed.
For you brought us Malaysians together.
For you are the true symbol of 1Malaysia."

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It’s not an English name I came up with for myself. My mother is indeed a genius in coming up with such a splendid name for me. Although my name has been unfortunately mutilated (nicknames are excluded) over the past years, full credits to my mum for my current identity.

I’m certainly looking forward to changing the word ‘patient’ to ‘survivor’! If you’re interested to read about my journey in battling lymphoma, you can click here to proceed to my cancer blog.

Ironic, I know; this blog is mainly pink instead. I like all colours actually, but I find myself having an affinity to the colour green. In fact, I can safely say that green is my soul colour.

Languages, music, fashion, photography, cultures, dance, literature, writing; just about anything, really. The arts truly intrigue me, especially thought-provoking pieces. Of course, the arts play a major role in inspiring me in my everyday life.

I don’t have a favourite genre – I read any book that interests me!

I am a trained right-hander from young, since apparently being left-handed is considered ‘wrong’. Basically, I’m ambidextrous! No wonder I find it easier to air guitar using my left hand than my right; I simply relate to the arts than subjects that deal with logical thinking better, too.

A stubborn Bull I am, too. I abhor being rushed. I prefer doing matters at my own reasonable pace. I don’t particularly like changes in my routine, but I can adapt quite easily. I’m a very practical person as well. I enjoy the beautiful things in life, but that doesn’t make me shun ugliness at all. Besides, it all depends on how one perceives beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder!

Still am, but I’m slowly learning to accept imperfection into my life. Also, I’m doing my best to erase the many expectations I have so I could one day master the art of letting go and freeing myself to simple happiness and joy.

Compared to before, I’m less dramatic nowadays. Language-wise, I attempt to blog flawlessly in English and speak proper English online with my peers. Call me a Grammar Nazi all you want, but that’s how I roll. I only converse in perfect English in formal situations and during my dramatic outbursts. Otherwise, I’m absolutely capable of communicating like the average Malaysian!

It’s a different issue altogether when you’re forced to learn for the sake of getting good grades, though. Other than that, I’m open to new information and knowledge anytime! I especially would like to learn more languages and pick up new musical instruments.

…are just some of the things I would love to do in the near future, hopefully!

the basic rules apply. If you respect me, I’ll respect you. If you happen to be someone who has low EQ skills, I’ll try to be tolerant but my patience is definitely limited. I’m observant when it comes to human behaviour. I’m a person of many opinions, but I don’t voice them out unless I trust you enough; I’m very honest and candid when it comes to the people I can trust. Even though I trust very easily, not everybody can prove that they’re all that nice. Hurt me, and I’ll only defend myself if necessary. Hurt my family or my friends – you won’t find me holding back.

Is there anything else you would like to know about me?
Throw me your questions and/or doubts here! I honestly have nothing to hide, so you’ll expect the truth and nothing but the truth.

It’s only how I phrase my answers that you’ll have to be aware of.
Or…you can click hereto go back to reading!

Not like I mind. Haha.

Still have all those holiday worksheets to do. They honestly can't let us kids off for a nice short break even for a moment. Ugh.

May is practically a life-saver for telling me that Puan Aerma cancelled that experiment with the eureka can and all. I ALMOST did the PEKA and the practical for it! Gawd, thank you so much Zea mays. Phew!

I have tons of Interact reports that aren't done either. Since entering secondary school, I never get to escape from report-writing. Seriously. LOL.

Need to email Manmit the format AGAIN, since Hotmail is currently bullshitting me by notifying me that I'm unable to send the very same email, FIVE times already! Oh gosh, this is not a good omen.

Holidays had been boring. Very. Boring.

So far, I'm stuck at home half the time with only the PC to accompany me, my stupid homework that I'm just so lazy to complete, and me, having such a short attention span, can hardly concentrate on anything in particular till it's done.

That means, if I actually manage to publish a blog entry, it's a huge effort already from me! Hahah!

I still want to change my blogskin. Am starting from scratch.

I may start a new fashion and photography blog.

Gawd, I can seriously laugh at myself for typing the above sentence.

Remember readers! Short attention span! I can't cope with updating this blog frequently, and my other space as well, and I'm actually thinking of another blog?

Harharharharhar. Since when did I have such a peculiar sense of humour?

I suck at Physics.

Wonder how those who are fasting are doing. I know I can't fast. Not strong-willed enough. If I ever fast, I think I can cope with no food, but no water? I'll definitely fall sick in less than a day. Don't want to try for now. Maybe one day for a good cause. =) All the best you all! Raya's in less than a month. ;)

I miss my classmates. My schoolmates. I certainly don't miss the homework! And waking up early! Like duh.

I been tagged by a couple of people! Christina, Cheryl, and anybody that I currently can't remember, sorry for missing you out! I'm getting lazier to do tags, but will try. XD

I realized this is a very random update.

Oh well, till I can actually get my homework done, bear with me.

Cheers!

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Yes, yes, yes!
FINALLY!!
I brought down that *insert vulgarities here* big-headed Dr Zombie dude!
See the white flag?
Muahahahahahahahahah!
Too bad my bee-yuh-ti-full shining sparkling silver Sunflower trophy can't be seen,
I print-screened it while it was gleaming. :(
Oh well,
I still won!
Muahahahahahahahahahahahah!
Credits to kor for the tips!
Since my brains got carelessly eaten once by a lame noobie zombie!
Stupid zombies.
And this note from the Zombies has to be the cutest and most humourous yet!


The music video is darn cute and funny too!

Those who are interested can search it up in Youtube! :D

By the way, the best part is just coming up..

I FINALLY GOT MY ZEN GARDEN.
I think only kor here can understand why I'm so excited about having my very own Zen Garden.
I'm always pestering him to let me take care of his Zen Garden plants whenever I could,
so yearh.
It's quite empty now,
with two Marigolds as starters,
but I'll make it!
It'll be as nice as kor's,
maybe nicer!
:DD


*****Twinnie reopened Owl Lee!

Happy happy happy me. ;)

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I really wasn't interested in Plants vs. Zombies till kor taught me the basics, and the rest is history.

Seriously, the plants are so annoyingly cute and freaking ah-dorable, I swear that's what made me play in the first place.

Kor already has a pretty happy-looking Zen Garden, which can only be obtained after the Adventure mode is completed.

Yeah, that's what got me hooked!

In my mission to obtain a nice and peaceful Zen Garden with annoyingly cute and freakingly ah-dorable plants, I must kill Zombiez that aim to eat my brainz as quickly as I could and get loads of moolah so that I can fill my future Zen Garden with annoyingly cute and freakingly ah-dorable plants.

*****I must kick myself to reply Twinnie's email. Seriously, there's so many distractions on the Internet. Ugh.

Bear with me, Twinnie. D:

PS : Here's a much happier and random post for my supermodel friend, Miss Karyn Ong, before my long and sad entries bore her out. ;)

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"Time is a dressmaker specializing in alterations."
~Faith Baldwin.~
-Change, ©Teiiko.-
To be honest, I'm a person who will be uncomfortable with changes to daily routines, as bored of it like I had always complained.

This brings me back to me conducting a self-reflecting session with myself.

This year so far, had been a rollercoaster ride. Reality after reality crashes down on me. What I had always thought was right all along, that thought vanished not long after the realization of it being oh so wrong.

Departures had been far too often this year. It was hard adjusting myself to the absence of many of those I had known.

And I'm not only talking about them people who are just in places miles away, but those who had departed for the other world that awaits them after their days of living ended.

Though we do not harbour close relationships, but they had inspired me to be part of who I am today.

Bless them all. May they be resting in peace.

Also, the close ties I used to have with some people, over the course of sixteen years being on planet Earth, had slowly faded away, just like that.

On the other hand, I had been blessed with new friends, and I'm honestly lucky to have know them, and actually be a friend to them.

Closer ties are formed, while the ties of the past?

Let it be, let it be.

I had made an effort to reform these specific ties, but unfortunately, it takes two hands to clap. I can't do anything about them if they choose not to.

I did my part, and I guess..that's all that matters.

And being a sixteen year old teenager, full of angst and raging hormones with frequent mood swings, and the emotional rush due to this part of the process called growing up.

I had been told that I had changed a lot from my kinder days, thanks to my mum who had..kindly enlightened me on this matter.

I know I'm not as hardworking like before. I know I'm not as dilligent as before. I know I'm not as rebellious as before. I know I'm not that sensible like before.

Yes, and I have always been aware of this, dear mother.

But, as much as I would like to stay like the child of the past, like the young daughter of a toddler you used to know, I just can't seem to.

For my alien behaviour of the present, I am truly, deeply, and sincerely sorry, mother.

I only can hope that you can bear with me, for I am trying my very best to change for the better.

All those seemingly harsh words you had been telling me at certain intervals of the year during my weakest moments, when I felt that the overwhelming sadness, frustration and uselessness can swallow me into nothingness, it will be then you would speak out.

You will always end your speech like this, after reducing me to tears and sniffles.

"Think about what I said, and see whether I'm right. I'm very disappointed in you."
If the very few people that I can safely regard as close friends would know about me, the first would be that I think utterly too much.

Ironic, huh.

But as I type this, I can only pray that my mum would soon realize that her daughter is only growing up, and bless her, as she is constantly worrying about so many other issues already, may she not bother herself with more upsets and disappointments with mere little me.

Though that will be a hard thing to do, for she's a mother, how can she not be concerned with the mental, physical, emotional and spiritual developments of one of her children?

I need to work on altering those of me that is a hindrance to many others.

And also, to myself.

To change, why not change altogether?

I had made a lot of changes this year anyway.

I think those who linger around me and personally know me from the inside out, though not fully, would notice these changes, big or small.

Once again, it is undeniable, there are some parts of me which I am unable to change, that is embedded into this soul who chose this body as her abode.

If there are some individuals who are not satisfied with parts of me that I am comfortable with and can proudly say it's truly me, I can only say that it's a clash of personalities, star signs and different preferences in life.

I cannot force them to like me, and they cannot force me to be all chummy with them as well.

That's something everyone, and I do mean everyone, should be aware of.

There's no use changing the important parts of you for the liking of others.

That's why peer pressure is so common among society, no matter which country on this planet we share with we're talking about.

Yet, change is unavoidable.

*****I need those changes, starting off with this space of mine.

Maybe a drastic haircut.

But most definitely, in my duty to be a filial daughter.

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Yes, as the title goes.

I owe all of my loyal readers, aka my darling friends and those who are actually bothered to update themselves on my boring daily routine, what's been going on in my side of the world.

So, as most of you should know by now, I went to Melaka and KL for, let's say, a short family vacation on Wednesday and Thursday.

It rocked, really. Hard to describe with just words, in fact.

Funny how I really enjoyed just two days with my whole family, with everybody there, just spending time, sitting down, having a meal together, and talk just about anything and everything under the sky.

Honestly, it's rare to get the whole family together like this.

I really appreciate the moments we spent together, for I think I really needed a break from the usual environment of school and tuition.

Melaka was awesome. I got to splurge on five new books there, and I had already finished one of them, which is a really, really good book. Thank goodness mumsie managed to see it and show it to me, or I would had never noticed it, and would had gone on with the earlier plan of buying the latest two books by Lisi Harrison in the Clique series, which I had been collecting since it first came out in stores. Oh well, they would have to wait. (:

KL was just as good. Managed to chomp on a lot of food there. Haha, with a glutton like me, that's normal, seriously. But hey, who doesn't live for good food? :3

And the best part is..


I love that table, somehow.

I'm going to be called crazy, but whatever. I heart that study table! Obssessed much? xD

Oh yeah, as to the fact of why I even had a study table to work on, daddykins, mumsie and I shared a room at HELP Residence, so that we can spend more time with kor. Heh. It was pretty cool, despite having just a shard of what was previously a mirror in the bathroom and the spoilt lights. Not forgetting the mattresses that were rock hard. Trust me, I am not exaggerating.

I'm quite blessed to have learnt something from all the Girl Guide camps I had been to, from sleeping on very dry ground of the field in a wet and undried tent, to sleeping on tables, cement floors, staircases, corridors, tables, and canteen benches. Just as smooth, and hard.

So, I totally chose to gave up the mattress to my dad, let him have the pillow, blanket and all, on the condition that I helped him move the mattress to the floor.

I took the sleeping bag instead and slept on the bed that had its mattress removed.

So basically, I slept on just a wooden surface of the bed, or the papan, as my parents call it.

When we all woke up the next morning..

Daddykins : Eh, backache la.
Mumsie : Yalor, same.
Daddykins : The mattresses are really rock solid hard, like papan.
Mumsie : Wonder how our son manages to survive such a mattress.
Leonie : *secretly feels grateful that she had survived worst conditions*
Mumsie : Girl ah, massage my back for me please.
Inner Leonie : Where's Jia Ying when I need her.

Left around 3pm. Plan to get something from Subway failed, since I was so full from lunch before. I had to finish up my mum's and kor's as well. And Azri actually said I'm skinny. As if! I eat too much. Haha.

And, fulfilling the part of a spoilt baby sister, I cried, AGAIN, just as we left the hostel and said bye to kor.

Boo.

Amazingly, we managed to reach home, in 3 hours plus.

And my dad didn't speed.

Wow indeed.

It's a miracle I managed to climb out of bed today and go to school like usual.

Missed Jia Ying and Guppy a lot! Had a family reunion with them at the back! :D

Miss the crazy classmates as well. Lol.

And the nice people whom I sit with now at the canteen during recess!

A lot of other people in fact.

Gosh, I really need to stop all that negative war of thoughts in my head and start being more optimistic.

Things aren't so bad.

If I can ever see things in a different light.

Step by step then. I'll get there.

One day. (:

Might be updating a lil' more often now. ;)

To Naomi and Ozri, you got your update. :]

PS : Thanks much to Naomi and Natchie. Khai and Azri. And of course, my Twinnie. You all know what you did, and I'm truly grateful. To those who care for me as well, my most sincere thanks to y'all as well.

PPS : Cai Ling's letter made me smile ever so easily. I love her.

PPPS : A second PS is already too much, what more a third. But tuition today was fun. Who knew dichotomy keys are so much fun? And drawing on Pikamon's hand, fooling around with MaoMao, discussing with Yi Shian about work, and having Khai and Guppy there..Bio tuition now never fails to bore me, with these people around. =) Mr Kung actually praised my work, for the first time. Ever.

PPPPS : Promise, last one here. We learnt about genus and species today. Zymase = Zea mays. XD

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At times I really do wonder, should I be replying your texts,
even though it's school-related?
You could be asking some other people.
Why choose to make me think about all those times again by texting me instead?

I'll be honest, once more.

It already hurts seeing you in the company of others and not just the both of us like we used to.

Now, you're trying to make your way in when I'm with my own friends?

Please.
I'm leaving you alone.
Just cut off all ties with me now,
can't you?
Spare me from the memories.
Please.
I have no intention of being friends with you anymore.

News spread quickly you know.
I heard what you said about me.
And it's funny that people said that you won't ever bitch about me.
That you were so loyal.
That you were the most awesome friend I could ever have.
Well, explain this.
Bitched about once more,
I lost count.
It's all a lie.

It's ironic how the two of my closest friends,
are not my closest anymore.
In fact,
they are each other's closest now.

We had that relationship once.
Now, you choose to share it with her.

I don't need it anyway.

It's stupid still that I still feel down about this.
I just can't seem to let go.

Well, let me tell you the reason.
I treasure my friendships a whole damn lot.
I won't ever go against my friends.
'Cos they just are.
Friends are the ones who would comfort me when I'm at my worst,
as I would for them.
Friends are the one who would share my joy, whether minor or major,
as I would for them.
Friends would appreciate me as a friend,
as I would to them.
Friends will respect me and my interests,
as I will about theirs.
Friends will always be friends,
they won't ever judge them.

If you choose to get on my wrong side,
it's over.
Unless you're going to be totally sincere in apologizing.

And change.
Yes, change.

I admit.
I have my own flaws.
My mistakes.
My differences.
My opinions.

I'll respect yours if you respect mine.

As if you don't have your own flaws.
Your mistakes.
Your differences.
Your opinions.

And to clarify things,
I do remember all the good times.
Too clearly, in fact,
it rubs more salt to the wound,
adds fuel to the fire.

You were there when the fact that I might move to another state in an utterly unhappy condition last year came about.
I chose to tell you, and only you.
You were there during all those times when some people misunderstood our intentions,
and we survived through all that.
You were there during events,
when we would spend more time together,
even if we were already spending all of our time together.
You were there during late night calls,
we would talk like there's no end.

We were there when you were trying to get over a certain someone.
We were there when we were sharing our own personal problems.
We were there when we got criticized for our work.
We were there during those nerve-wrecking moments.
We were there doing what girls just do.

I was told to remember all of the good times I spent with you,
and to actually make the effort to reconcile with you.

Well, I'm sorry.
I can't do it.

Not with all the pretences and short-lived promises.
Never once fulfilled.

I did my part.
Don't bother replying.
If you do,
it's most probably all in the name of defending your own name,
instead of clearing things up.
And in the end,
I'll look like the bad guy once again!
Without fail!

I'm being super honest here.
What about you?

Jealous?
Frustrated?
Envious?
Disappointed?
Ashamed?

I felt them all.
All thanks to you.

Thank you very much.

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"It's time for us to do our part."
I am currently typing my blog post on Microsoft Word and not on Blogger just to avoid my mumsie from seeing me blogging instead of working on homework like I should. She’s pretty convinced that I’m working on one of my endless essays from school now.

In any case, 4SC1/2009 officiated our Say NO to Plastic Bags campaign today.

I have to say, I’m proud of each and every one of us who had all played a part in making this happen, from the cutting of letters to the designing, drawing and colouring of the posters, those cute little paper badges we made in the shape of a bag, the Powerpoint presentation, and of course, who can forget the DIY recycled, environmental-friendly cloth bags from old clothes and accessories.

From skipping a few classes here and there to work on our project in the hall, to doing bits and pieces with people sewing/colouring/painting/drawing/cutting during lessons, is all worthwhile.

Conflicts were unavoidable, but as a class, we were united.

And we promoted our campaign not only to those in the morning session, but also to the afternoon session kids.

Heck, we even went up on stage as a class to sing to Michael Jackson’s Heal The World, when I couldn’t had thought of anything better to do but to sing pretty loudly into the mike and act like a goody girl up there. Efforts of passing the mike to my other classmates were futile, as the wire was pretty limited to only a certain length of the stage. And when I did attempt to hand the mike over to a random classmate closest to me at that time, the mike gets pushed back at me, as I had apparently handed over the mike at the wrong time.

Note that a lot of us did not memorize the lyrics to the song.

I am guilty of that as well.

Oh well, what’s done’s done.

It was pretty fun while we were up there, excluding the fact that I was all shaky and croaking like a frog on stage.

And I know I won’t probably get to do such a thing again.

I actually had the guts to sing on stage, in front of the entire afternoon session, and I could had only done that with the support of my classmates right behind me, with the much needed company, and of course, not forgetting May and Liyana who were handling the laptop.

Gosh, I thank life for such an unexpected, yet pretty awesome experience.

I had fun today.

Hopefully my classmates feel the same way. (:

And of course, a big thank you to everyone and anyone who is supporting our campaign. Highly appreciated, and it’s something we can do to save the current condition of our planet. Mother Nature is obviously rebelling against us by causing the whole (A) H1N1 Influenza to happen worldwide, for we had caused her harm as well.

Man, we are in serious need of mutual understanding, respect, love and peace here.

If that’s ever possible to attain at an international level.

PS : I SWEAR I thought I saw Anna singing along with the rest of the choir from our class at the platform, smiling enthusiastically at me, like she always does.

Problem is, she was absent today as she was sick.

Aik. The girl may be sick, but I’m sure a part of her was there to sing with us. :]

Anna-chan, please take good care of yourself! More H2O, more rest!

And that goes to all of you who are feeling unwell, you got me?

*****Music class was pretty awesome, as per usual.

Puan Yew was busy apparently, so Music class was cancelled on a very last minute basis. I was actually worried that Puan Yew might be coming to class as usual, for I know she would either be commenting a lot on my singing, or she would be laughing non-stop and telling Eva and Natchie what happened. I think the latter is the most likely to happen. Lol.

Nobody minded, since we found it as a chance to talk, talk, talk, talk, talk and talk.

Thank you Eva for the piano scores! It’ll be safe with me, I can assure you that. Lol.

Thank you Jia Ying for reminding me to ask Eva to bring the piano scores. Forgetful me. Haha!

Thank you Natchie, for confiding in me. As a friend, I would do anything within my abilities to help you. Remember, SMILE SMILE SMILE! *hugs*

Scandal alert! I saw some pictures of Jaafar and *insert said human’s name here*, with Jaafar looking very Shasha! XD *evil laugh*

*****Jia Ying : Harabuchi is hyper la today.
Guppy : Memang pun.
Jia Ying : When harabuchi is emo, we all are hyper. When she’s hyper, we all are emo.

So true. Well said, Jia Ying. Also known as the girl who made my right hand into her blank canvas for her to scribble and draw on.

Fine, so I made her draw some of them.

Hey, I was bored.

Don’t blame me.

I can’t seem to wash the ink off my hand though.

Haha! Then again, I can always make her draw some more tomorrow! ;)

Goodnight world!

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Yada yada, I'm so freaking bored.

Have class later. Wonder if I can stay awake.

I'm updating my blog using Liyana's laptop! Thank you Liyana! (:

I seriously have no idea what else to blog about.

Oh yeah! We're doing this Powerpoint presentation for next Monday, and it's looking good! Hopefully it'll have the desired impact on the students and teachers XD

Ashikin is here! Haha. Random.

Going to Singapore tomorrow! Hahahahahahahahahaha!

Okay, very random.

And yes! Hopefully Anna-chan gets better soon! Rest well! And play your piano!

Miss me everyone! Not going to school tomorrow! :P

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"Music class never fails to bring me cheer and smiles. Today's just brighten up my totally lifeless day. Liyana, Jia Ying and I totally were out of this world, or maybe more to Liyana and me, as we got some really good ideas on our Powerpoint presentation! Can't wait to share with the class, and am seriously hoping for some positive feedback! Thanks to Puan Yew, Natchie, and Eva who all contributed ideas to us! Haha, they all rock. And Puan Yew said I'm a skeleton teddy bear. Hmmph. Eva said I'm very bad, directly translated from Chinese! LOL. The bunny ears are for you teacher, in return of your name for me!"
"Reading Ash's comment on considering journalism. I had thought of it, and it's in my list of career possiblities after SPM. But what makes you think I should consider journalism in particular? Haha. And reading her tweets made my day! ;D I am ok, dear Twin! Do not worry. Lol. Hope you're alright as well!"
"My eyes were tearing up throughout today's English class after listening to Bob Carlistle's Butterfly Kisses. I heard the song many times, but had never bothered to listen to the exact lyrics. Tons of flashbacks then, I felt really emotional."
"Something I learnt this year -
life is full of departures and leavings."

"To Fio, get well soon please!
And to anybody else who are sick!
H1N1 is getting quite serious here in JB,
and this ain't a good time to be falling sick at all.
Drink loads of water,
rest earlier and sleep more!"

"To Natch,
I'm always here for you if you want to talk.
But for the time being,
don't message me.
Since apparently I didn't receive your texts at all.
Damn DiGi.
Try MSN if you need to contact me,
anytime!
I'll get back to you ay-sap.
Please don't worry so much,
if you need somewhere to channel all that stuff you think so much about,
I'm available okay?
Cheer up!
You are my Little Miss Smiley!
I can't be smiley if you aren't!
(:
*hugs*"

"And yes Izzat.
I finally saw the light.
Thank you for enlightening me.
No pun intended.
Haha."

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Is this lady here.
Fortunately,
she's colour blind.

Being a Malaysian, Yasmin Ahmad definitely plays an important role in conserving that last bit of unity and harmony between the people of different races, religions and cultures in Malaysia, that is very rare to see nowadays.

Not knowing her personally, I can't really say much about her character, for that would be assumptions on my part.

But she, who had dedicated her life to enlightening us the greatness of being a colour blind citizen, had done so through her movies and adverts.


From Sepet to Gubra,


Mukhsin to Muallaf,


Rabun to Talentime.
And her well-acclaimed ads, of course. All over Youtube.

And all of them works of Yasmin Ahmad aim to convey the same message.

Family.
Friendship.
Unity.
Harmony.
Love.

I think, these are the crucial five words that are compulsory in the success and the peace of a country.

Malaysia is somewhere there, but of course, there's always room for improvement.

For gawd's sake, Malaysia freaking banned Muallaf from premiering in Malaysian cinemas because of the controversial issues it portrays.

It just can't be denied that Yasmin Ahmad's works only speak the truth, and nothing but the truth.

It's only whether we can stand up and accept this fact in our lives..or not.

Whether we can implement these values in our everyday routines..or not.

Ultimately, it's still up to us as Malaysians to work together to achieve and cement the status of 1Malaysia in our country.

Yasmin Ahmad did her part in making that first step for us, and by now we should be..alert enough to continue her legacy and make these values a reality.

Is it possible?

If you're a Malaysian reading this entry right now, I dare you to take up a pledge to be colour blind right now.

If you're not a Malaysian, and you know of Yasmin Ahmad and her work, uphold those values from wherever you are, and make this world a better place.

Tell your friends, family, anybody you know.

Because it takes the effort of many to make this a reality.

All the good values of the yesteryears, trying to be preserved by this one lady.

"Wise and witty."
"Beautiful from the inside and out."
Yasmin Ahmad.
1958 - 2009.

"You'll be deeply missed.
For you brought us Malaysians together.
For you are the true symbol of 1Malaysia."

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