Hello world.

I had been noticing recently many new blogs popping out of nowhere. And already have a place and high status at somewhere.

Gee.

That makes my poor bloggie so sad it can almost cry itself to it's grave due to loneliness and very little taggies from people.

HARDLY ANYONE COMES HERE.

If your reason for not coming here often is because of the reason I hardly update, I apologize.

Not like I don't wanna update, I can't update. If my mum sees me blogging, all the 'advice' and 'lectures' starts coming off like a machine gun.

I'm just trying to sound nice and respectful to my parents.

I'm just wondering.

Why can our parents scream out their opinions on our behaviour and everyday life like there's no big deal and we the kids can't voice out our thoughts?

We're just being honest.

Of course, there's a limit to everything we do, but can't we even tell our parents our simple rants once in awhile?

...

Now I know why all of my mates in school keep everything to themselves or only confide in their elder sibs, and thier priority, close friends.

That's because these people don't really judge you too much like you parents.

I know the line.

"IT'S FOR YOUR OWN GOOD."

Sometimes we know about our mistakes already, but is it really that necessary to rub more salt into our wounds?

We're not your little young kiddy toddlers or tweens in primary anymore that will always listen to your every word and be your darling angel.

I'm sorry, but I happen to like the way I am now. I don't really care the crap of what you think anymore, I have my own brain to rationalize what's right or wrong, and it's just too bad you don't know I'm trying my very best in everything I'm doing.

And yes, I happen to be writing about this because my mum was just oh-giving-her-'motherly advice' about me being ungrateful and useless, etc. Typical mum stuff.

And now she's being oh-so-decent to my brother to get back at me.

My parents commenting and raising their voices at the top of their lungs about me being too sensitive. Saying that just because nobody takes notice of me when he/she manages to take notice of the rest of the family, I shouldn't be COMPLAINING.

If they only know how much I'm being NOTICED in school and everywhere else I go.




*****
I read an entry in Wanda's blog recently.

And I noticed how much it applied to me nowadays.

What she said about people commenting on her about not smiling enough and such. I totally get the point.

"People who see or know another of the same kind for the first time tend to jump to conclusions and let it end there without bothering to find out the truth or to know that person even more in depth.

People tend to judge you by your looks. Hence the line of 'making the first impression is important'. "

This is reality, my friends.

Some people had asked me questions like such:

"Why you look so sad?"

"Why I don't see you smiling often?"

"Why aren't you talking to (soandso)?"

"Why you so quiet?"

"Why you sitting alone?"

And I had overheard some wonderful or maybe not so wonderful comments from people, thanks to my secret agent ears that can't stay deaf at the right times.

"Look at her, she act cool only."

"Damn sombong (proud) wei her."

"Leonie's too emo at times."

"She's so lame, takde gang (no clique) to hang out with."

There's more, but what's the use of mentioning so many for?

To sentences that are in bold, the answer why is, I'm need to think alot and ponder about stuff, or I'm just observing your every move to rip your soul open to know the real you inside. I happen to be a very talented face reader and whatever you guys really feel and think are clearly written and stamped on your faces. Your voice also gives everything away.

Also, I'm very stingy with my smiles. The genuine smile can only be seen when you can crack a very funny joke or I just mean it. Fake and sarcastic smiles goes out to criticism that just doesn't apply to me as you're saying it to try to bring my defences down, or, I just don't feel like talking to you. So never force me to smile. No wait, never force me to do anything. I'll do it on my own free will thank you very much.

On the other hand, sentences in bold and italic are very simple in fact. I'm not like the majority of you, that can only hang out with people you know for a hundred years already and can't even try to know other people surrounding you even better. Next, I'm very bad at saying things I really mean 99.99% of times so I'm not good at saying 'hi' when I see you walking by the corridors nor making eye contact with you. This doesn't makes me proud one bit okay. If it offends you, I can't really do anything, it's already my nature to do that.

I can't really hope for all of you to understand what I really think and feel, but this is the best I can do to let you guys know.



*****
Now, for the quickies in the Artistic Crapper's life:

1. Sukantara sucks big time. Don't worry Green House, even though I suck at sports, but cheering for you is my forte!
2. Internet shopping's FUN. Especially when you buy stuff you REALLY REALLY want. Mucho thanks to Merenwen XD
3. Debate tryouts are not going to be NEVER fun with the two Sarahs of the debate world around. Gulp.
4. Homework load is constantly increasing and holidays seem a long time away.
5. Looking forward to the drama competition and FOA! =D

Stay tuned for more quick quickies of the AC world.

Till then.

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It’s not an English name I came up with for myself. My mother is indeed a genius in coming up with such a splendid name for me. Although my name has been unfortunately mutilated (nicknames are excluded) over the past years, full credits to my mum for my current identity.

I’m certainly looking forward to changing the word ‘patient’ to ‘survivor’! If you’re interested to read about my journey in battling lymphoma, you can click here to proceed to my cancer blog.

Ironic, I know; this blog is mainly pink instead. I like all colours actually, but I find myself having an affinity to the colour green. In fact, I can safely say that green is my soul colour.

Languages, music, fashion, photography, cultures, dance, literature, writing; just about anything, really. The arts truly intrigue me, especially thought-provoking pieces. Of course, the arts play a major role in inspiring me in my everyday life.

I don’t have a favourite genre – I read any book that interests me!

I am a trained right-hander from young, since apparently being left-handed is considered ‘wrong’. Basically, I’m ambidextrous! No wonder I find it easier to air guitar using my left hand than my right; I simply relate to the arts than subjects that deal with logical thinking better, too.

A stubborn Bull I am, too. I abhor being rushed. I prefer doing matters at my own reasonable pace. I don’t particularly like changes in my routine, but I can adapt quite easily. I’m a very practical person as well. I enjoy the beautiful things in life, but that doesn’t make me shun ugliness at all. Besides, it all depends on how one perceives beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder!

Still am, but I’m slowly learning to accept imperfection into my life. Also, I’m doing my best to erase the many expectations I have so I could one day master the art of letting go and freeing myself to simple happiness and joy.

Compared to before, I’m less dramatic nowadays. Language-wise, I attempt to blog flawlessly in English and speak proper English online with my peers. Call me a Grammar Nazi all you want, but that’s how I roll. I only converse in perfect English in formal situations and during my dramatic outbursts. Otherwise, I’m absolutely capable of communicating like the average Malaysian!

It’s a different issue altogether when you’re forced to learn for the sake of getting good grades, though. Other than that, I’m open to new information and knowledge anytime! I especially would like to learn more languages and pick up new musical instruments.

…are just some of the things I would love to do in the near future, hopefully!

the basic rules apply. If you respect me, I’ll respect you. If you happen to be someone who has low EQ skills, I’ll try to be tolerant but my patience is definitely limited. I’m observant when it comes to human behaviour. I’m a person of many opinions, but I don’t voice them out unless I trust you enough; I’m very honest and candid when it comes to the people I can trust. Even though I trust very easily, not everybody can prove that they’re all that nice. Hurt me, and I’ll only defend myself if necessary. Hurt my family or my friends – you won’t find me holding back.

Is there anything else you would like to know about me?
Throw me your questions and/or doubts here! I honestly have nothing to hide, so you’ll expect the truth and nothing but the truth.

It’s only how I phrase my answers that you’ll have to be aware of.
Or…you can click hereto go back to reading!

Hello world.

I had been noticing recently many new blogs popping out of nowhere. And already have a place and high status at somewhere.

Gee.

That makes my poor bloggie so sad it can almost cry itself to it's grave due to loneliness and very little taggies from people.

HARDLY ANYONE COMES HERE.

If your reason for not coming here often is because of the reason I hardly update, I apologize.

Not like I don't wanna update, I can't update. If my mum sees me blogging, all the 'advice' and 'lectures' starts coming off like a machine gun.

I'm just trying to sound nice and respectful to my parents.

I'm just wondering.

Why can our parents scream out their opinions on our behaviour and everyday life like there's no big deal and we the kids can't voice out our thoughts?

We're just being honest.

Of course, there's a limit to everything we do, but can't we even tell our parents our simple rants once in awhile?

...

Now I know why all of my mates in school keep everything to themselves or only confide in their elder sibs, and thier priority, close friends.

That's because these people don't really judge you too much like you parents.

I know the line.

"IT'S FOR YOUR OWN GOOD."

Sometimes we know about our mistakes already, but is it really that necessary to rub more salt into our wounds?

We're not your little young kiddy toddlers or tweens in primary anymore that will always listen to your every word and be your darling angel.

I'm sorry, but I happen to like the way I am now. I don't really care the crap of what you think anymore, I have my own brain to rationalize what's right or wrong, and it's just too bad you don't know I'm trying my very best in everything I'm doing.

And yes, I happen to be writing about this because my mum was just oh-giving-her-'motherly advice' about me being ungrateful and useless, etc. Typical mum stuff.

And now she's being oh-so-decent to my brother to get back at me.

My parents commenting and raising their voices at the top of their lungs about me being too sensitive. Saying that just because nobody takes notice of me when he/she manages to take notice of the rest of the family, I shouldn't be COMPLAINING.

If they only know how much I'm being NOTICED in school and everywhere else I go.




*****
I read an entry in Wanda's blog recently.

And I noticed how much it applied to me nowadays.

What she said about people commenting on her about not smiling enough and such. I totally get the point.

"People who see or know another of the same kind for the first time tend to jump to conclusions and let it end there without bothering to find out the truth or to know that person even more in depth.

People tend to judge you by your looks. Hence the line of 'making the first impression is important'. "

This is reality, my friends.

Some people had asked me questions like such:

"Why you look so sad?"

"Why I don't see you smiling often?"

"Why aren't you talking to (soandso)?"

"Why you so quiet?"

"Why you sitting alone?"

And I had overheard some wonderful or maybe not so wonderful comments from people, thanks to my secret agent ears that can't stay deaf at the right times.

"Look at her, she act cool only."

"Damn sombong (proud) wei her."

"Leonie's too emo at times."

"She's so lame, takde gang (no clique) to hang out with."

There's more, but what's the use of mentioning so many for?

To sentences that are in bold, the answer why is, I'm need to think alot and ponder about stuff, or I'm just observing your every move to rip your soul open to know the real you inside. I happen to be a very talented face reader and whatever you guys really feel and think are clearly written and stamped on your faces. Your voice also gives everything away.

Also, I'm very stingy with my smiles. The genuine smile can only be seen when you can crack a very funny joke or I just mean it. Fake and sarcastic smiles goes out to criticism that just doesn't apply to me as you're saying it to try to bring my defences down, or, I just don't feel like talking to you. So never force me to smile. No wait, never force me to do anything. I'll do it on my own free will thank you very much.

On the other hand, sentences in bold and italic are very simple in fact. I'm not like the majority of you, that can only hang out with people you know for a hundred years already and can't even try to know other people surrounding you even better. Next, I'm very bad at saying things I really mean 99.99% of times so I'm not good at saying 'hi' when I see you walking by the corridors nor making eye contact with you. This doesn't makes me proud one bit okay. If it offends you, I can't really do anything, it's already my nature to do that.

I can't really hope for all of you to understand what I really think and feel, but this is the best I can do to let you guys know.



*****
Now, for the quickies in the Artistic Crapper's life:

1. Sukantara sucks big time. Don't worry Green House, even though I suck at sports, but cheering for you is my forte!
2. Internet shopping's FUN. Especially when you buy stuff you REALLY REALLY want. Mucho thanks to Merenwen XD
3. Debate tryouts are not going to be NEVER fun with the two Sarahs of the debate world around. Gulp.
4. Homework load is constantly increasing and holidays seem a long time away.
5. Looking forward to the drama competition and FOA! =D

Stay tuned for more quick quickies of the AC world.

Till then.

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