Note to Teddy before I start : I fixed the font size. Satisfied now? Hehe. The truth is that I also starting to tak tahan with the small small font XD

Yes yes, once more I have to go on a another hiatus. Like my lovely finals are coming up in 2 days and I still have a lot of studying to catch up on. In the frankness of truthness I had seriously never studied this shit much and hard before. I'm sure I could get better marks compared to my previous don't care about exams self. But on the other hand, we have a lot of fierce competition in 2 PD 1. And with 2 KT 1 when it comes to my baka Jap test which I haven't bothered memorizing yet >.<

Speaking of this, I'm gonna have to go for OMEGA tuition starting December and start revising back me form 1 and 2 syllabus for PMR. Sigh. On the other hand, I can look forward to my French classes. Once they get 4 more students. Sigh. Like I'm the only one registering for French lessons and everybody is going for Japanese lessons instead. This just proves how popular the language is now. Hehe.

Trying to get the hang of Photoshop. I managed to work the brushes and stuff and starting to get to know the basics of HTML. Not too shabby for a total tech-know-nothing like me. Phew. Now all that's left is learning how to draw and do the special effects for my new blogskin and load it into Photobucket and voila. My own cretive creation which I honestly like V(^.^)V Not like this onw isn't nice but it WAS featured blogskin of the day before and like, 4000++ bloggers have the same blogskin. But I DID make mine much different. Hehe.

I'm basically starting to get the hang of my school life. Yes. School life. I hear questions like "What? You had been a student for almost 8 years and you're still not used to school life?" The answer is yes. I feel the awkward of awkwardness in secondary school since day 1. And there ARE seniors who think I'm an unsocial brat. Truth is, I have no idea what to talk to them about. Gossip? Diss? Branded clothes? Godsiblings? Most popular people in school? My precious apologies, but not really interested. I may be a freak and a timid little mouse in your eyes, but I'm a whole lotta different in the inside. So be it.

With this I officially announce my 2 week long hiatus and the beginning of the study freak era. Wish me luck anyway. *crosses fingers*

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Watashi wa uchi e kaerimasu~ (to those who don't have a single idea what that meant, basically means "I went back home." But anyway, I'm back in familiar nice JB =)

I'm not done with my MPO and FOA entry, how stinkily slower can I get..? Sigh.

So, SPEC's cancelled. Happy? Because I don't have to face SPEC and being flattened to the core of the earth within the first round. Sad? Because there's no chance of skipping school. School's getting really depressing. Syllabus all done with, mostly it's quizzes, revision, exercises, etc. I'm getting so tired of myself. I always force myself to study and do revision, but my body says no. I'm mentally exhausting myself. Anyway SPEC's been moved to next year around January if I'm not mistaken, so I better prepare still with the rest of the Scrabble team (which also includes Evonne =D) after our horri-gi-ble, terri-gi-ble and ve-ge(gi)-table (quote from ah-noying mother from I Not Stupid the movie) year ends =(

Meanwhile, I'm becoming a fat buta-chan =.= Mumsie dah-ling said my face from it's usual sharpness at the chin, is getting much MUCH rounder. Creddy hell. >.< rad shopping spree at 1 Utama! Wheeeeee! Okay, please don't blame me for being so ulu-ed because I seriously know nothing about KL. I hardly go there except for MPO okay. Lol. So, 1U has this ah-mazingly super mega big MPH which has TWO floors and a indoor cafe. That has to be uber cool for me. Like, of course, I did say I had never been there what. Hehe. Bought books worth RM200++. Cringe. Intend to pay Mumsie and Daddy dah-ling back. When my beautiful pay arrives. Lol. Anyway, Lynette jie-jie, you dah send dy ka? XDD

Cameron was, as usual, FREEZING. I thought going up to Cameron this time would let me go over the wacky mucho fun I had during the prefect trip but..I obviously changed my mind. Definitely agree with Apsara now. I remembered asking Apsara during the lovable prefect trip in Cameron, would she rather bath with water too hot or icy cold H2O in this mad weather with yellow which almost turned brown water, mossy toilet and a heater that doesn't work 3/4 of the time and the unlucky one of us gets the 1/4 and be burned to death by the hot to hotness water? I said I rather freezed to death while Apsara said likewise but I'll seriously major so the agree with her now. Ah yes. Did I mention that this whole trip wasn't only me family and I alone? There were Dad's friends and their really think-that-they're-really-uber-cool-and-emo children. Me and Xavi kor TRIED to 'socialize' with them, as Dad said we have to try so they won't think we're proud yada yada yada don't throw your (more like his) face away but we just can't click into place with their gang. Let me just name them as WAHLAO-GUY1, WAHLAO-GUY2, EMOTAKJADIGIRL, SAMEAGEGIRL, BOLSTERGIRL AND BOLSTERGUY.

Fine facts about the KL-Cameron gang:

• They're cousins. And practically live under the same roof so they're like darn close and all that. Okay, this is actually good but I just wanted to make an intro.
• As their names go. WAHLAO-GUY1 and WAHLAO-GUY2 likes to say wah-lao half the freaking ah-noying time. Every conversation they speak too loudly so we can overhear them on purpose starts with that super annoying word. In case they really didn't know though they ought to know as they ARE Chi-yuh-nese, that word actually means husband or wife. Are they trying to say they have a wife to keep ragging at?? N.O. NO. So, conclusion, it's freaking annoying. End of conversation.
• EMOTAKJADIGIRL is as I said. The first time I set my eyes on her, I immediately smiled in hope of trying to make friends with her, but, instead what I get for wasting time tiring my smile muscles? She tried to emo-stare me in the eyes hoping to freak me out. Didn't work my emo pal. I activating my reaction command (think Kingdom Hearts 2 =D) and gave her my stare-that-pierce-into-your-very-soul look, as you all know I supposed XD, and I could see she was taken aback. Right after that I overheard her telling WAHLAO-GUY1 and WAHLAO-GUY2 that I'm a VEEEERRRRRY unfriendly and not cool girl which is a total nerdy bookworm spekkie that probably has no friends in school and lives an abnormal life where I don't have a good eye for fashion and no hang out with her clique. Okay, fine. I didn't really care the cred what she said about me cos I'm used to people taking behind my back, thank you very much but sorry much, it doesn't apply me. But I do like to right the total untruths she said.

Fake 1: .."VEEEERRRRRY unfriendly and not cool girl."
Fact 1:
I smiled at her in attempt to make friends with her, as mentioned. And yes, maybe I'm as uncool as she thinks, maybe I really am not uber popular and cool in school, but who cares? As long as I stay to the true-to-myself-karma I'll be totally fine.

Fake 2: .."a total nerdy bookworm spekkie that probably has no friends in school."
Fact 2:
This is a major insult. But I got a better way of putting it, sista. I'm creating a whole new trend here. Do you know Victoria from ANTM Cycle 9? She's smart and a straight A student and people thinks she's a total nerd but she made it into the freaking top 13 in America. I love reading as I get to expand my knowledge on matters that I have no idea about and let my imagination soar sky high and delve deep into a world of my own. I am major proud of my specs as it doesn't make my eyes look so sepet as YOU. I want to be different and not mix into the commoness like you, Oh Mighty Emo One That Has Bad Taste and Is A Bad Liar. And oh yeah despite my definite bookworm attitude I do HAVE friends totemo domo arigato gozaimasu. (Can anyone please support this statement? Her aunt's a computer programmer and if she finds her way in here I have solid proof. And I'm doubting even myself on this point.)

Fake 3: .."lives an abnormal life where I don't have a good eye for fashion and no hang out with her clique."
Fact 3:
Abnormal life. Hell yeah baby. I don't want a boring life like yours. Which consists of the formulae, gossip, brands, riches. My fashion sense is way more wackio than yours. I'm just expressing my love for a different edgy look that no one else dares to try (maybe Wanda but she has of course, a WAAAAAAAAAAAAAY better style than anybody else I know). I don't just stick to Nike, Radioactive or Billabong. I totally look down on people that think with branded stuff you can get whatever you want. Major wrongness. And why is it so freaking important that it's a freaking stupid rule that you only ONLY ONLY can hang out with your own clique or gang? You should try opening up and socialize, isn't that what you are SO good at, with other people? I just wanna be friends with everyone, and no best friends please, cos you won't have any oppurtunities to break out of your teeny weeny little shell.

• SAMEAGEGIRL, I didn't talk to her much. But she was trying so hard to blend in with her COOL cousins.
• BOLSTERGIRL and BOLSTERGUY are SAMEAGEGIRL's younger siblings. Not much grudges against them anyway, but they just won't layan me..? I guess EMOTAKJADIGIRL spread some other nice stuff to them as well, as they were giving me really weird looks. Whatever. Watching Disney Channel and cuddling up with a good book is way mucho better than trying to hang out with people that just are so un-open minded.

So, will upload pics and more details on trip after I'm more than done with my chores. Major room-cleaning to be done.

I still have so much to type about V(^.^)V

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Not really considered an update, so really sorry to dissapoint you guys XD

Anyway, going on a three to four day hiatus as I'm off to KL and Cameron tomorrow! Note to Veena, get my belated b'day prezzie because I'm getting yours in KL =P And will get souvenirs for people certainty if I still have the duckets. Hehe.

Will taggy everybody that tagged me after me hiatus =) And make major major updates and changes too =D

No complainie. Complainie no likey. XDD

And before I forget, Selamat Hari Raya to all me Muslim friends and happy holiday-ing to all of you out there V(^^)V

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Woah.

Another week had gone by. Though I expected this to be a thoroughly unenjoyable and the usual same old-same old week, the wheel of fortune just decided to turn a little bit more to the rarest sector where both pure luck and the least bit of sadness I can get to get this week done and over with.

Wednesday dated 26th of September 2007. Started off really badly with heavy rain and being, well, the opposite of fashionably, late. Came in a mess, could hardly concentrate. Gomen ne, Fairuz-san, I made a mess of our dialogue T.Tgerak gempur and I, the lazy procrastinator, never bothered to study one little bit. Mucho thanks to Hazel and Veena, for willing to put up with the anoying me, the Maths dunce. And it was during that moment, when I received what was the best news I was waiting for in ages.

THE STUFF@SCHOOL ARTICLE CAME OUT. Was I like, completely mad with happiness or what. There I was, along with Hazel and Veena, screaming like there's no need to care of our outer surroundings. I could have sweared that I'd never NEVER been this mad and crazy in school before. With this brand new confidence I managed to sit for that bloody gerak gempur positively and for a super dead Maths dunce like me, I actually managed to answer everything. I don't care whether it's right or wrong, but I just felt totally great at that moment. With this I really like to apologize to people who think that I'm so selfish in not telling them this great oppurtunity to shine and be known by practically the whole of Malaysia, I don't really care the cred of what you think of me, whether why I'm such a stuck-up, selfish bi-a-tch for not telling the so-called popular and famous you that there's an interview in the StarNIE pullout and giving you the chance to be the most popular in the whole of JB. It's my choice, my article, my rules. So anywaaaaay, I already got the next batch of dedicated people picked for the next interview (if I still have the chance to do so, that is. Miss Lynette if you're reading this I hope you got the very obvious hint XDDDD)

Veena, Hazel and I showed the article to Cik Fara, Pn Rozi and Miss Navinder. Cik Normala saw it by accident as well. At least she knows who we are now. She was so the blur when she was asking where are the people that were involved in this article when we were standing right in front of her. Gawrsh, I guess that just would be Cik Normala. Lol. And we're appearing in the Malar Hijau with my name also specially focused on =P Ain't I just lucky that both my original fiction and the StarNIE article had booked itself a spot in the school mag. *grin grin grin*

Thursday dated 27 September 2007. At 1pm the moment of truth arrived. I was already mourning and telling my 'last words' to Fairuz, Apsara, Evonne and Veena. Man, wasn't I acting like it was my last day on earth and I'm voicing out my will or something. Veena had told me earlier and from the day before that I got into the top 4 spots and she got biro and I was like, Veena have to be over reacting and making up her own list (no offense Veena, but I really and still sincerely thought you have more potential then being just biro but yeah, I think you'll rock this post nobody else would ever do =D ) And yeah, I got secretary. I almost mourned cos I didn't get the assistant head prefect I wanted, but I quickly gathered myself up and started rejoicing instead. And I got the top 2 spots right =D Fairuz is so the confirm the head prefect and Apsara was also so the assistant. And at the same time into this entry I would like to congratulate everyone that got into the 2007/2008 BOD, as I so the know we are gonna rock the school next year, yeah baby, yeah! (quoting Austin Powers XD)

Actually I don't mind having the post of secretary. Like the reference I borrowed from Faezah and she was the secretary, and I think I may have that lil' potential in writing and composing stories. And Cally-jie was the secretary in her year =) Oh yeah, I also am the vice secretary for Caklempong, which makes it a really big factor and point that makes me think, am I just meant to be with writing reports my whole life? Hmmmm..

Evonne has been constantly mentioning that these few days had been my lucky days and I just had to say that I really agree.

Till now.

I had been skipping class, getting in majordomo trouble with the teachers and exchanged my simple quiet life to something more than hectic but just a little bit less than chaotic. Don't wanna mention them here again.

Scrabble competition's next week! I'm sure I'll be sqaushed flat by the EC team, but I don't really care anymore. It's the experience and the time I'm spending with Fairuz, Veena and Hazel that counts. Man, now I frucking know how nice it is to have friends that are actually THERE for you =)

To Veena, Hazel and Evonne, we're so gonna do the mock ANTM judging panel one day. During MPO or anytime we could have a mad time of our lives. Yes, I chose Tyra already so don't fight with me! (^^.) To Evonne, I got the script with the prizes all memorized already~ XD

Ah, life is changing for me. I have friends, I have average grades, I have everything that I could ask for. Isn't life just great right now =D

Current obsession: ANTM. The whole series. Maybe more to Cycle 5-9 ;)

Secret fact number one about current obsession: When I watched ANTM, I always wondered what ANTM meant on the show. Always thought, "Why the heck Tyra wanna put "Caridee English, ANTM Cycle 7?" when I always thought ANTM meant autumn. It was only when I typed the initials in my phone to jot down the episode I wanted to download only did I realized. I don't know how much of a slower reaction I can get =.=

PEACE OUT!

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As the title goes. Unjustice, my friends, is not a very rare matter now in Malaysia. Nurin Jazlin Jazimin, was found dead in a sports bag on Monday morning. She, had been sexually assaluted and brutally killed. And yes, she died a very painful death. She was just an innocent eight year old going off to the pasar malam near her house, and was last seen being pulled into a white van screaming by a man.

My heartfelt condolences to Nurin's family members, especially her mother. Note that I said mother, and not her father instead. I will say no more in case by any chance the government find this blog and I get arrested for voicing out my opinions.

Similar cases had happened over the past decade. The first girl from the picture above, Ang May Hong was found dead with a metre-long piece of wood with three nails at the end forced into her vagina, puncturing her intestines, stomach and heart, and a piece of wire around her neck on April 12, 1987. Her body was discovered by her father in a deserted house used as a drug haunt in Jalan Tun Razak, about 70 metres from her home, three hours after she went missing while buying breakfast with her 11-year-old brother.


Man, I wasn't even born into this world yet when she passed on caused by that painstaking experience. I just recently read about her case on The New Straits Times Online. What really pissed me off was this particular sentence,


"Several men were arrested but were freed due to a lack of evidence. The culprit was never caught."

I pray for this sicko ass of a murderer to died a much much more bloody and wrenching pain than little Ang May Hong.

Second picture: In October 2000, six-year-old Nushuhada Burak, was raped, strangled and murdered and her body was found in a rooftop water tank at a three-storey house in Selayang Baru. She was last seen on the way to a shop near her house. A foreigner and a 13-year-old boy were detained in connection with the case. (My comment: What the freaggin' hell happened after that?!")

Third picture: In January 2004, the murder of Nurul Huda Abdul Ghani, 10, sent shockwaves throughout the country when it was revealed that she was gang-raped, sodomised, battered and strangled to death. Her naked body was found in the toilet of the guardhouse of a TNB substation when she failed to come home after going to the shop. A security guard who was on duty at the substation was subsequently sentenced to death for her murder.

And sadly, throughout the years, there were many similar cases of rape and murder that happened to innocent girls in Malaysia. View this website to know more.

As a Malaysian, I sincerely feel and just know that these cases can be avoided. Families of the victims would not have to suffer a great loss and lose one of their beloved members. Friends and relatives also share the same trauma as the family. We, as caring Malaysians, can understand the pain and overwhelming emotions of these fellow Malaysians. Therefore, in a psychology point of view, all this can be avoided if all of us had a caring and loving family, even though we are as poor as no beggar can be or living in well known riches. If all of us had a happy and memorable childhood, this world that we are living in right now, would be a much more peaceful and understanding world. It would be a world where we are safe to live in, where we can have that sense of security, without fear overpowering our emotions every single time we take a step out of the doors of our cosy homes. And yes, I can just imagine the people screaming in my face saying that not everybody can have a happy childhood and trouble-less families, that everybody have different problems, such as financial problems, family arguments, major downfall in their respective careers, ill health, etc. All of us have different personalities and point of views to match and this results in different verdicts. I can see that Tan Sri Dr M. Mahadevan also agrees with me. (Source from The New Straits Times Online)

IPOH: Nurin's killer is a pervert who enjoys torturing his victims.

This is the reading of retired consultant psychiatrist Tan Sri Dr M. Mahadevan who said,"The person is not mad but cunning and, socially, a bad character."Family background may have driven the pervert to inflict such brutal and sadistic acts on a child. He may have been abused and beaten up by his parents which left a very lasting and unforgettable mark."

Whatever your opinion may be, let it be that we pray for these heartless animal-like incidents to stop occuring and let this be a safe country for all Malaysians, young and old alike, whether you're of different races or cultures, we are still, yes, Malaysians.

Oh yeah, and include in your prayer that these vilgehk idiotic heartless sadistic cruel evil *insert whatever that are suitable to describe these creatures* pervert sickos die a much more increased painstaking and bloody death than the poor victims of their vicious act.

God bless the innocent that had departed. Let the evil wrong-doers suffer from the actions that they had earlier inflicted on others.

PS: I know I sound like a very much over-semangat-ed Malaysian. Actually I love this country, but I just can't bear the education system, the kujanhsahd ruling us and the unbelievable amount of racism going on in this country.

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Well, this would be the time. When I'm gonna diss people. For real and publicly on my blog. Yeah, I know it's practically so the immature of me to hate people and hide their names anonymously on this blog of mine, but I'm doing this for two reasons. And NO, one of the reasons is not because I'm a freaggin' idiotic coward that doesn't dare to voice out her opinions.

Reason 1 : I'm protecting the identities of these people, even though I hate them to the core.

Reason 2 : I really need to avoid the misunderstandings occuring recently. I also badly need to rant what's been bottled up in me for so so long. ( That's what a blog is also for, am I not right? )

WARNING : IF YOU ARE NOT PREPARED FOR MAJOR DISSING OR DO NOT WANT TO BE ENTANGLED IN A SERIES OF COMPLICATIONS THAT MAY END UP MUSSING YOUR SIMPLE GREAT LIFE, PLEASE LEAVE OR IGNORE THIS POST TILL THE NEXT ENTRY.

1. This human deserves not one single bit of respect from me. Meet Gyodneaa, a certain somebody who's in the same club as me in school. For goodness sake, I have no reason to hate you in the first place, but you and your family started this horrific war with mine, so wake up from your childish dreams, you sicko loser. You just love to lord over the juniors that you think can't do well enough or act like you, YOU are in charge of everything. You think that you can voice out stuff really well, but please, face reality that the club have two way way WAY more excellent leaders and teachers than you and Lraf Fae Mehk. I find both of you really snobby and sorry if you manage to find out who you are if you ever happen to stumble upon this blog. It's my opinion at the time being on the both of you. Maybe I'll regret one day that I shouldn't have such naive hates over the both of you but for now, the hate can't just disperse into thin air at the moment. Do overcome your what you think is coolness. I know you have loads of friends from not only this school but others as well, but in my opinion, you have to be the most unpopular person that ever existed. You and your best friend. ( PS: Your blogs deserved to be buried underneath the core of the earth. Please, you guys are so uncreative and FYI, I only visit your blogs to know my enemies a little better. I always believe in that theorem. )

2. You. You. Heluma Mur, who loves to blame me and compare me to the other prefects. Why oh why, must I be your victim? I didn't even remember doing anything that may have offended you. I do my part of the duty, and that's that's. I even do extra work okay? Not because I want extra credit, just because I really want to help in any way I can. And please, stop sucking up to Jaahy, it's really annoying to both her( I guess) and me, as you love to compare us. And compliment her right in front of me after giving me one heck of a lecture. Dissapointed cos I'm not the rich girl you expected me to be? The girl who knows her Levi's jean size? You tried to get to know me more because you thought I'm a really loaded. Wrong. And you only made friends with Ybcyny just because you want to know more about Hesecry, concluded after overhearing you in every single conversation with her that you only ask her about Hesecry and complaining why is she so quiet.

3. Mes Jejeyh. You think you are some genius and everybody must depend or look up to you to get solutions and answers. Puh-lease. I know you go for freaggin' OMEGA tuition and all the things your tuition teacher says is right and our school teachers are half the time wrong. Keep your own methods to yourself. Not everybody needs to beg you for your help. And yes, I admit I purposely act deaf when you complain that you can't see the board or the LCD screen, and when other people say they can't see only I move away and even joke about it, like in Maths today. You talk so much and that shrilly burung pipit voice of yours is making my ears bleed. And the truth is, your piano playing is eventhough without error, but I find it extremely flat and there's not a single bit of expression or dynamics are showing at all. I hated you even more when you lied and said you failed your practical, actually you got a stinko merit. ( Question: Why these people who play so darn bloody keras can get a damnation pass or above in exams? Frucking ABRSM examiners. You people will regret not realizing my efforts.) Oh yeah. You just LOVE to act like you're so smart during quizzes huh? Dying to outwin everyone in every single exam and shooting up your hand like you're some Hermione Granger. No, I don't deny I do that sometimes but can you please stop going like, "Wrong answer. The answer is -so-and-so-." or "I know the answer!!! The answer is -so-and-so-!!!" Please lar, give other people a god damnation chance. Everybody needs to shine, you don't need to hog the limelight 24/7.

(Note: To the people or my friends that may have found out the identity of these people, I hope you can keep it hush-hush. I rather they found out by themselves and know what are their real personalities in public and wake up from this illusions they're having. My gracious thanks.)

I actually have alot more to talk about, but decided to shut it for the time being, and see the results of this entry first before I embark into greater risks of being a loner and end up friendless at school.

Too late. I already am like that.

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Dedication

This post is specially dedicated to May, who's pestering me to update this old thing XD

Desperation

I desperately need the knowledge and expertise on the editing of blogskins. I want to be original but I can't T.T

Deliberation

I will deliberately announce to Veena that if she posts the pics of me titled "As Leonie struggles on.." collection she are so the kena from I. You no understand me? =.= !!!

I got the title idea from the stupid 3 Ds of Apparation. Can't remember anyway XDD

Will blog more when I'm in the mood to anyway. For now I just wanna read some fanfics. Yes Kor, I know how nice fanfics are now, okie? =.= (x3)

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It’s not an English name I came up with for myself. My mother is indeed a genius in coming up with such a splendid name for me. Although my name has been unfortunately mutilated (nicknames are excluded) over the past years, full credits to my mum for my current identity.

I’m certainly looking forward to changing the word ‘patient’ to ‘survivor’! If you’re interested to read about my journey in battling lymphoma, you can click here to proceed to my cancer blog.

Ironic, I know; this blog is mainly pink instead. I like all colours actually, but I find myself having an affinity to the colour green. In fact, I can safely say that green is my soul colour.

Languages, music, fashion, photography, cultures, dance, literature, writing; just about anything, really. The arts truly intrigue me, especially thought-provoking pieces. Of course, the arts play a major role in inspiring me in my everyday life.

I don’t have a favourite genre – I read any book that interests me!

I am a trained right-hander from young, since apparently being left-handed is considered ‘wrong’. Basically, I’m ambidextrous! No wonder I find it easier to air guitar using my left hand than my right; I simply relate to the arts than subjects that deal with logical thinking better, too.

A stubborn Bull I am, too. I abhor being rushed. I prefer doing matters at my own reasonable pace. I don’t particularly like changes in my routine, but I can adapt quite easily. I’m a very practical person as well. I enjoy the beautiful things in life, but that doesn’t make me shun ugliness at all. Besides, it all depends on how one perceives beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder!

Still am, but I’m slowly learning to accept imperfection into my life. Also, I’m doing my best to erase the many expectations I have so I could one day master the art of letting go and freeing myself to simple happiness and joy.

Compared to before, I’m less dramatic nowadays. Language-wise, I attempt to blog flawlessly in English and speak proper English online with my peers. Call me a Grammar Nazi all you want, but that’s how I roll. I only converse in perfect English in formal situations and during my dramatic outbursts. Otherwise, I’m absolutely capable of communicating like the average Malaysian!

It’s a different issue altogether when you’re forced to learn for the sake of getting good grades, though. Other than that, I’m open to new information and knowledge anytime! I especially would like to learn more languages and pick up new musical instruments.

…are just some of the things I would love to do in the near future, hopefully!

the basic rules apply. If you respect me, I’ll respect you. If you happen to be someone who has low EQ skills, I’ll try to be tolerant but my patience is definitely limited. I’m observant when it comes to human behaviour. I’m a person of many opinions, but I don’t voice them out unless I trust you enough; I’m very honest and candid when it comes to the people I can trust. Even though I trust very easily, not everybody can prove that they’re all that nice. Hurt me, and I’ll only defend myself if necessary. Hurt my family or my friends – you won’t find me holding back.

Is there anything else you would like to know about me?
Throw me your questions and/or doubts here! I honestly have nothing to hide, so you’ll expect the truth and nothing but the truth.

It’s only how I phrase my answers that you’ll have to be aware of.
Or…you can click hereto go back to reading!

Note to Teddy before I start : I fixed the font size. Satisfied now? Hehe. The truth is that I also starting to tak tahan with the small small font XD

Yes yes, once more I have to go on a another hiatus. Like my lovely finals are coming up in 2 days and I still have a lot of studying to catch up on. In the frankness of truthness I had seriously never studied this shit much and hard before. I'm sure I could get better marks compared to my previous don't care about exams self. But on the other hand, we have a lot of fierce competition in 2 PD 1. And with 2 KT 1 when it comes to my baka Jap test which I haven't bothered memorizing yet >.<

Speaking of this, I'm gonna have to go for OMEGA tuition starting December and start revising back me form 1 and 2 syllabus for PMR. Sigh. On the other hand, I can look forward to my French classes. Once they get 4 more students. Sigh. Like I'm the only one registering for French lessons and everybody is going for Japanese lessons instead. This just proves how popular the language is now. Hehe.

Trying to get the hang of Photoshop. I managed to work the brushes and stuff and starting to get to know the basics of HTML. Not too shabby for a total tech-know-nothing like me. Phew. Now all that's left is learning how to draw and do the special effects for my new blogskin and load it into Photobucket and voila. My own cretive creation which I honestly like V(^.^)V Not like this onw isn't nice but it WAS featured blogskin of the day before and like, 4000++ bloggers have the same blogskin. But I DID make mine much different. Hehe.

I'm basically starting to get the hang of my school life. Yes. School life. I hear questions like "What? You had been a student for almost 8 years and you're still not used to school life?" The answer is yes. I feel the awkward of awkwardness in secondary school since day 1. And there ARE seniors who think I'm an unsocial brat. Truth is, I have no idea what to talk to them about. Gossip? Diss? Branded clothes? Godsiblings? Most popular people in school? My precious apologies, but not really interested. I may be a freak and a timid little mouse in your eyes, but I'm a whole lotta different in the inside. So be it.

With this I officially announce my 2 week long hiatus and the beginning of the study freak era. Wish me luck anyway. *crosses fingers*

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Watashi wa uchi e kaerimasu~ (to those who don't have a single idea what that meant, basically means "I went back home." But anyway, I'm back in familiar nice JB =)

I'm not done with my MPO and FOA entry, how stinkily slower can I get..? Sigh.

So, SPEC's cancelled. Happy? Because I don't have to face SPEC and being flattened to the core of the earth within the first round. Sad? Because there's no chance of skipping school. School's getting really depressing. Syllabus all done with, mostly it's quizzes, revision, exercises, etc. I'm getting so tired of myself. I always force myself to study and do revision, but my body says no. I'm mentally exhausting myself. Anyway SPEC's been moved to next year around January if I'm not mistaken, so I better prepare still with the rest of the Scrabble team (which also includes Evonne =D) after our horri-gi-ble, terri-gi-ble and ve-ge(gi)-table (quote from ah-noying mother from I Not Stupid the movie) year ends =(

Meanwhile, I'm becoming a fat buta-chan =.= Mumsie dah-ling said my face from it's usual sharpness at the chin, is getting much MUCH rounder. Creddy hell. >.< rad shopping spree at 1 Utama! Wheeeeee! Okay, please don't blame me for being so ulu-ed because I seriously know nothing about KL. I hardly go there except for MPO okay. Lol. So, 1U has this ah-mazingly super mega big MPH which has TWO floors and a indoor cafe. That has to be uber cool for me. Like, of course, I did say I had never been there what. Hehe. Bought books worth RM200++. Cringe. Intend to pay Mumsie and Daddy dah-ling back. When my beautiful pay arrives. Lol. Anyway, Lynette jie-jie, you dah send dy ka? XDD

Cameron was, as usual, FREEZING. I thought going up to Cameron this time would let me go over the wacky mucho fun I had during the prefect trip but..I obviously changed my mind. Definitely agree with Apsara now. I remembered asking Apsara during the lovable prefect trip in Cameron, would she rather bath with water too hot or icy cold H2O in this mad weather with yellow which almost turned brown water, mossy toilet and a heater that doesn't work 3/4 of the time and the unlucky one of us gets the 1/4 and be burned to death by the hot to hotness water? I said I rather freezed to death while Apsara said likewise but I'll seriously major so the agree with her now. Ah yes. Did I mention that this whole trip wasn't only me family and I alone? There were Dad's friends and their really think-that-they're-really-uber-cool-and-emo children. Me and Xavi kor TRIED to 'socialize' with them, as Dad said we have to try so they won't think we're proud yada yada yada don't throw your (more like his) face away but we just can't click into place with their gang. Let me just name them as WAHLAO-GUY1, WAHLAO-GUY2, EMOTAKJADIGIRL, SAMEAGEGIRL, BOLSTERGIRL AND BOLSTERGUY.

Fine facts about the KL-Cameron gang:

• They're cousins. And practically live under the same roof so they're like darn close and all that. Okay, this is actually good but I just wanted to make an intro.
• As their names go. WAHLAO-GUY1 and WAHLAO-GUY2 likes to say wah-lao half the freaking ah-noying time. Every conversation they speak too loudly so we can overhear them on purpose starts with that super annoying word. In case they really didn't know though they ought to know as they ARE Chi-yuh-nese, that word actually means husband or wife. Are they trying to say they have a wife to keep ragging at?? N.O. NO. So, conclusion, it's freaking annoying. End of conversation.
• EMOTAKJADIGIRL is as I said. The first time I set my eyes on her, I immediately smiled in hope of trying to make friends with her, but, instead what I get for wasting time tiring my smile muscles? She tried to emo-stare me in the eyes hoping to freak me out. Didn't work my emo pal. I activating my reaction command (think Kingdom Hearts 2 =D) and gave her my stare-that-pierce-into-your-very-soul look, as you all know I supposed XD, and I could see she was taken aback. Right after that I overheard her telling WAHLAO-GUY1 and WAHLAO-GUY2 that I'm a VEEEERRRRRY unfriendly and not cool girl which is a total nerdy bookworm spekkie that probably has no friends in school and lives an abnormal life where I don't have a good eye for fashion and no hang out with her clique. Okay, fine. I didn't really care the cred what she said about me cos I'm used to people taking behind my back, thank you very much but sorry much, it doesn't apply me. But I do like to right the total untruths she said.

Fake 1: .."VEEEERRRRRY unfriendly and not cool girl."
Fact 1:
I smiled at her in attempt to make friends with her, as mentioned. And yes, maybe I'm as uncool as she thinks, maybe I really am not uber popular and cool in school, but who cares? As long as I stay to the true-to-myself-karma I'll be totally fine.

Fake 2: .."a total nerdy bookworm spekkie that probably has no friends in school."
Fact 2:
This is a major insult. But I got a better way of putting it, sista. I'm creating a whole new trend here. Do you know Victoria from ANTM Cycle 9? She's smart and a straight A student and people thinks she's a total nerd but she made it into the freaking top 13 in America. I love reading as I get to expand my knowledge on matters that I have no idea about and let my imagination soar sky high and delve deep into a world of my own. I am major proud of my specs as it doesn't make my eyes look so sepet as YOU. I want to be different and not mix into the commoness like you, Oh Mighty Emo One That Has Bad Taste and Is A Bad Liar. And oh yeah despite my definite bookworm attitude I do HAVE friends totemo domo arigato gozaimasu. (Can anyone please support this statement? Her aunt's a computer programmer and if she finds her way in here I have solid proof. And I'm doubting even myself on this point.)

Fake 3: .."lives an abnormal life where I don't have a good eye for fashion and no hang out with her clique."
Fact 3:
Abnormal life. Hell yeah baby. I don't want a boring life like yours. Which consists of the formulae, gossip, brands, riches. My fashion sense is way more wackio than yours. I'm just expressing my love for a different edgy look that no one else dares to try (maybe Wanda but she has of course, a WAAAAAAAAAAAAAY better style than anybody else I know). I don't just stick to Nike, Radioactive or Billabong. I totally look down on people that think with branded stuff you can get whatever you want. Major wrongness. And why is it so freaking important that it's a freaking stupid rule that you only ONLY ONLY can hang out with your own clique or gang? You should try opening up and socialize, isn't that what you are SO good at, with other people? I just wanna be friends with everyone, and no best friends please, cos you won't have any oppurtunities to break out of your teeny weeny little shell.

• SAMEAGEGIRL, I didn't talk to her much. But she was trying so hard to blend in with her COOL cousins.
• BOLSTERGIRL and BOLSTERGUY are SAMEAGEGIRL's younger siblings. Not much grudges against them anyway, but they just won't layan me..? I guess EMOTAKJADIGIRL spread some other nice stuff to them as well, as they were giving me really weird looks. Whatever. Watching Disney Channel and cuddling up with a good book is way mucho better than trying to hang out with people that just are so un-open minded.

So, will upload pics and more details on trip after I'm more than done with my chores. Major room-cleaning to be done.

I still have so much to type about V(^.^)V

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Not really considered an update, so really sorry to dissapoint you guys XD

Anyway, going on a three to four day hiatus as I'm off to KL and Cameron tomorrow! Note to Veena, get my belated b'day prezzie because I'm getting yours in KL =P And will get souvenirs for people certainty if I still have the duckets. Hehe.

Will taggy everybody that tagged me after me hiatus =) And make major major updates and changes too =D

No complainie. Complainie no likey. XDD

And before I forget, Selamat Hari Raya to all me Muslim friends and happy holiday-ing to all of you out there V(^^)V

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Woah.

Another week had gone by. Though I expected this to be a thoroughly unenjoyable and the usual same old-same old week, the wheel of fortune just decided to turn a little bit more to the rarest sector where both pure luck and the least bit of sadness I can get to get this week done and over with.

Wednesday dated 26th of September 2007. Started off really badly with heavy rain and being, well, the opposite of fashionably, late. Came in a mess, could hardly concentrate. Gomen ne, Fairuz-san, I made a mess of our dialogue T.Tgerak gempur and I, the lazy procrastinator, never bothered to study one little bit. Mucho thanks to Hazel and Veena, for willing to put up with the anoying me, the Maths dunce. And it was during that moment, when I received what was the best news I was waiting for in ages.

THE STUFF@SCHOOL ARTICLE CAME OUT. Was I like, completely mad with happiness or what. There I was, along with Hazel and Veena, screaming like there's no need to care of our outer surroundings. I could have sweared that I'd never NEVER been this mad and crazy in school before. With this brand new confidence I managed to sit for that bloody gerak gempur positively and for a super dead Maths dunce like me, I actually managed to answer everything. I don't care whether it's right or wrong, but I just felt totally great at that moment. With this I really like to apologize to people who think that I'm so selfish in not telling them this great oppurtunity to shine and be known by practically the whole of Malaysia, I don't really care the cred of what you think of me, whether why I'm such a stuck-up, selfish bi-a-tch for not telling the so-called popular and famous you that there's an interview in the StarNIE pullout and giving you the chance to be the most popular in the whole of JB. It's my choice, my article, my rules. So anywaaaaay, I already got the next batch of dedicated people picked for the next interview (if I still have the chance to do so, that is. Miss Lynette if you're reading this I hope you got the very obvious hint XDDDD)

Veena, Hazel and I showed the article to Cik Fara, Pn Rozi and Miss Navinder. Cik Normala saw it by accident as well. At least she knows who we are now. She was so the blur when she was asking where are the people that were involved in this article when we were standing right in front of her. Gawrsh, I guess that just would be Cik Normala. Lol. And we're appearing in the Malar Hijau with my name also specially focused on =P Ain't I just lucky that both my original fiction and the StarNIE article had booked itself a spot in the school mag. *grin grin grin*

Thursday dated 27 September 2007. At 1pm the moment of truth arrived. I was already mourning and telling my 'last words' to Fairuz, Apsara, Evonne and Veena. Man, wasn't I acting like it was my last day on earth and I'm voicing out my will or something. Veena had told me earlier and from the day before that I got into the top 4 spots and she got biro and I was like, Veena have to be over reacting and making up her own list (no offense Veena, but I really and still sincerely thought you have more potential then being just biro but yeah, I think you'll rock this post nobody else would ever do =D ) And yeah, I got secretary. I almost mourned cos I didn't get the assistant head prefect I wanted, but I quickly gathered myself up and started rejoicing instead. And I got the top 2 spots right =D Fairuz is so the confirm the head prefect and Apsara was also so the assistant. And at the same time into this entry I would like to congratulate everyone that got into the 2007/2008 BOD, as I so the know we are gonna rock the school next year, yeah baby, yeah! (quoting Austin Powers XD)

Actually I don't mind having the post of secretary. Like the reference I borrowed from Faezah and she was the secretary, and I think I may have that lil' potential in writing and composing stories. And Cally-jie was the secretary in her year =) Oh yeah, I also am the vice secretary for Caklempong, which makes it a really big factor and point that makes me think, am I just meant to be with writing reports my whole life? Hmmmm..

Evonne has been constantly mentioning that these few days had been my lucky days and I just had to say that I really agree.

Till now.

I had been skipping class, getting in majordomo trouble with the teachers and exchanged my simple quiet life to something more than hectic but just a little bit less than chaotic. Don't wanna mention them here again.

Scrabble competition's next week! I'm sure I'll be sqaushed flat by the EC team, but I don't really care anymore. It's the experience and the time I'm spending with Fairuz, Veena and Hazel that counts. Man, now I frucking know how nice it is to have friends that are actually THERE for you =)

To Veena, Hazel and Evonne, we're so gonna do the mock ANTM judging panel one day. During MPO or anytime we could have a mad time of our lives. Yes, I chose Tyra already so don't fight with me! (^^.) To Evonne, I got the script with the prizes all memorized already~ XD

Ah, life is changing for me. I have friends, I have average grades, I have everything that I could ask for. Isn't life just great right now =D

Current obsession: ANTM. The whole series. Maybe more to Cycle 5-9 ;)

Secret fact number one about current obsession: When I watched ANTM, I always wondered what ANTM meant on the show. Always thought, "Why the heck Tyra wanna put "Caridee English, ANTM Cycle 7?" when I always thought ANTM meant autumn. It was only when I typed the initials in my phone to jot down the episode I wanted to download only did I realized. I don't know how much of a slower reaction I can get =.=

PEACE OUT!

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As the title goes. Unjustice, my friends, is not a very rare matter now in Malaysia. Nurin Jazlin Jazimin, was found dead in a sports bag on Monday morning. She, had been sexually assaluted and brutally killed. And yes, she died a very painful death. She was just an innocent eight year old going off to the pasar malam near her house, and was last seen being pulled into a white van screaming by a man.

My heartfelt condolences to Nurin's family members, especially her mother. Note that I said mother, and not her father instead. I will say no more in case by any chance the government find this blog and I get arrested for voicing out my opinions.

Similar cases had happened over the past decade. The first girl from the picture above, Ang May Hong was found dead with a metre-long piece of wood with three nails at the end forced into her vagina, puncturing her intestines, stomach and heart, and a piece of wire around her neck on April 12, 1987. Her body was discovered by her father in a deserted house used as a drug haunt in Jalan Tun Razak, about 70 metres from her home, three hours after she went missing while buying breakfast with her 11-year-old brother.


Man, I wasn't even born into this world yet when she passed on caused by that painstaking experience. I just recently read about her case on The New Straits Times Online. What really pissed me off was this particular sentence,


"Several men were arrested but were freed due to a lack of evidence. The culprit was never caught."

I pray for this sicko ass of a murderer to died a much much more bloody and wrenching pain than little Ang May Hong.

Second picture: In October 2000, six-year-old Nushuhada Burak, was raped, strangled and murdered and her body was found in a rooftop water tank at a three-storey house in Selayang Baru. She was last seen on the way to a shop near her house. A foreigner and a 13-year-old boy were detained in connection with the case. (My comment: What the freaggin' hell happened after that?!")

Third picture: In January 2004, the murder of Nurul Huda Abdul Ghani, 10, sent shockwaves throughout the country when it was revealed that she was gang-raped, sodomised, battered and strangled to death. Her naked body was found in the toilet of the guardhouse of a TNB substation when she failed to come home after going to the shop. A security guard who was on duty at the substation was subsequently sentenced to death for her murder.

And sadly, throughout the years, there were many similar cases of rape and murder that happened to innocent girls in Malaysia. View this website to know more.

As a Malaysian, I sincerely feel and just know that these cases can be avoided. Families of the victims would not have to suffer a great loss and lose one of their beloved members. Friends and relatives also share the same trauma as the family. We, as caring Malaysians, can understand the pain and overwhelming emotions of these fellow Malaysians. Therefore, in a psychology point of view, all this can be avoided if all of us had a caring and loving family, even though we are as poor as no beggar can be or living in well known riches. If all of us had a happy and memorable childhood, this world that we are living in right now, would be a much more peaceful and understanding world. It would be a world where we are safe to live in, where we can have that sense of security, without fear overpowering our emotions every single time we take a step out of the doors of our cosy homes. And yes, I can just imagine the people screaming in my face saying that not everybody can have a happy childhood and trouble-less families, that everybody have different problems, such as financial problems, family arguments, major downfall in their respective careers, ill health, etc. All of us have different personalities and point of views to match and this results in different verdicts. I can see that Tan Sri Dr M. Mahadevan also agrees with me. (Source from The New Straits Times Online)

IPOH: Nurin's killer is a pervert who enjoys torturing his victims.

This is the reading of retired consultant psychiatrist Tan Sri Dr M. Mahadevan who said,"The person is not mad but cunning and, socially, a bad character."Family background may have driven the pervert to inflict such brutal and sadistic acts on a child. He may have been abused and beaten up by his parents which left a very lasting and unforgettable mark."

Whatever your opinion may be, let it be that we pray for these heartless animal-like incidents to stop occuring and let this be a safe country for all Malaysians, young and old alike, whether you're of different races or cultures, we are still, yes, Malaysians.

Oh yeah, and include in your prayer that these vilgehk idiotic heartless sadistic cruel evil *insert whatever that are suitable to describe these creatures* pervert sickos die a much more increased painstaking and bloody death than the poor victims of their vicious act.

God bless the innocent that had departed. Let the evil wrong-doers suffer from the actions that they had earlier inflicted on others.

PS: I know I sound like a very much over-semangat-ed Malaysian. Actually I love this country, but I just can't bear the education system, the kujanhsahd ruling us and the unbelievable amount of racism going on in this country.

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Well, this would be the time. When I'm gonna diss people. For real and publicly on my blog. Yeah, I know it's practically so the immature of me to hate people and hide their names anonymously on this blog of mine, but I'm doing this for two reasons. And NO, one of the reasons is not because I'm a freaggin' idiotic coward that doesn't dare to voice out her opinions.

Reason 1 : I'm protecting the identities of these people, even though I hate them to the core.

Reason 2 : I really need to avoid the misunderstandings occuring recently. I also badly need to rant what's been bottled up in me for so so long. ( That's what a blog is also for, am I not right? )

WARNING : IF YOU ARE NOT PREPARED FOR MAJOR DISSING OR DO NOT WANT TO BE ENTANGLED IN A SERIES OF COMPLICATIONS THAT MAY END UP MUSSING YOUR SIMPLE GREAT LIFE, PLEASE LEAVE OR IGNORE THIS POST TILL THE NEXT ENTRY.

1. This human deserves not one single bit of respect from me. Meet Gyodneaa, a certain somebody who's in the same club as me in school. For goodness sake, I have no reason to hate you in the first place, but you and your family started this horrific war with mine, so wake up from your childish dreams, you sicko loser. You just love to lord over the juniors that you think can't do well enough or act like you, YOU are in charge of everything. You think that you can voice out stuff really well, but please, face reality that the club have two way way WAY more excellent leaders and teachers than you and Lraf Fae Mehk. I find both of you really snobby and sorry if you manage to find out who you are if you ever happen to stumble upon this blog. It's my opinion at the time being on the both of you. Maybe I'll regret one day that I shouldn't have such naive hates over the both of you but for now, the hate can't just disperse into thin air at the moment. Do overcome your what you think is coolness. I know you have loads of friends from not only this school but others as well, but in my opinion, you have to be the most unpopular person that ever existed. You and your best friend. ( PS: Your blogs deserved to be buried underneath the core of the earth. Please, you guys are so uncreative and FYI, I only visit your blogs to know my enemies a little better. I always believe in that theorem. )

2. You. You. Heluma Mur, who loves to blame me and compare me to the other prefects. Why oh why, must I be your victim? I didn't even remember doing anything that may have offended you. I do my part of the duty, and that's that's. I even do extra work okay? Not because I want extra credit, just because I really want to help in any way I can. And please, stop sucking up to Jaahy, it's really annoying to both her( I guess) and me, as you love to compare us. And compliment her right in front of me after giving me one heck of a lecture. Dissapointed cos I'm not the rich girl you expected me to be? The girl who knows her Levi's jean size? You tried to get to know me more because you thought I'm a really loaded. Wrong. And you only made friends with Ybcyny just because you want to know more about Hesecry, concluded after overhearing you in every single conversation with her that you only ask her about Hesecry and complaining why is she so quiet.

3. Mes Jejeyh. You think you are some genius and everybody must depend or look up to you to get solutions and answers. Puh-lease. I know you go for freaggin' OMEGA tuition and all the things your tuition teacher says is right and our school teachers are half the time wrong. Keep your own methods to yourself. Not everybody needs to beg you for your help. And yes, I admit I purposely act deaf when you complain that you can't see the board or the LCD screen, and when other people say they can't see only I move away and even joke about it, like in Maths today. You talk so much and that shrilly burung pipit voice of yours is making my ears bleed. And the truth is, your piano playing is eventhough without error, but I find it extremely flat and there's not a single bit of expression or dynamics are showing at all. I hated you even more when you lied and said you failed your practical, actually you got a stinko merit. ( Question: Why these people who play so darn bloody keras can get a damnation pass or above in exams? Frucking ABRSM examiners. You people will regret not realizing my efforts.) Oh yeah. You just LOVE to act like you're so smart during quizzes huh? Dying to outwin everyone in every single exam and shooting up your hand like you're some Hermione Granger. No, I don't deny I do that sometimes but can you please stop going like, "Wrong answer. The answer is -so-and-so-." or "I know the answer!!! The answer is -so-and-so-!!!" Please lar, give other people a god damnation chance. Everybody needs to shine, you don't need to hog the limelight 24/7.

(Note: To the people or my friends that may have found out the identity of these people, I hope you can keep it hush-hush. I rather they found out by themselves and know what are their real personalities in public and wake up from this illusions they're having. My gracious thanks.)

I actually have alot more to talk about, but decided to shut it for the time being, and see the results of this entry first before I embark into greater risks of being a loner and end up friendless at school.

Too late. I already am like that.

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Dedication

This post is specially dedicated to May, who's pestering me to update this old thing XD

Desperation

I desperately need the knowledge and expertise on the editing of blogskins. I want to be original but I can't T.T

Deliberation

I will deliberately announce to Veena that if she posts the pics of me titled "As Leonie struggles on.." collection she are so the kena from I. You no understand me? =.= !!!

I got the title idea from the stupid 3 Ds of Apparation. Can't remember anyway XDD

Will blog more when I'm in the mood to anyway. For now I just wanna read some fanfics. Yes Kor, I know how nice fanfics are now, okie? =.= (x3)

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