Baring It All.
My name really is Leonie.
It’s not an English name I came up with for myself. My mother is indeed a genius in coming up with such a splendid name for me. Although my name has been unfortunately mutilated (nicknames are excluded) over the past years, full credits to my mum for my current identity.
I’m a cancer patient.
I’m certainly looking forward to changing the word ‘patient’ to ‘survivor’! If you’re interested to read about my journey in battling lymphoma, you can click
here to proceed to my cancer blog.
Green is my favourite colour.
Ironic, I know; this blog is mainly pink instead. I like all colours actually, but I find myself having an affinity to the colour
green. In fact, I can safely say that
green is my
soul colour.
I’m an art-appreciator.
Languages, music, fashion, photography, cultures, dance, literature, writing; just about anything, really. The arts truly intrigue me, especially thought-provoking pieces. Of course, the arts play a major role in inspiring me in my everyday life.
You’ll find me carrying a book to just about everywhere.
I don’t have a favourite genre – I read any book that interests me!
I found out that I’m actually a left-hander.
I am a trained right-hander from young, since apparently being left-handed is considered ‘wrong’. Basically,
I’m ambidextrous! No wonder I find it easier to air guitar using my left hand than my right; I simply relate to the arts than subjects that deal with logical thinking better, too.
Taurus is my astrological sign.
A stubborn Bull I am, too. I abhor being rushed. I prefer doing matters at my own reasonable pace. I don’t particularly like changes in my routine, but I can adapt quite easily. I’m a very practical person as well. I enjoy the beautiful things in life, but that doesn’t make me shun ugliness at all. Besides, it all depends on how one perceives beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder!
I’m a born perfectionist.
Still am, but I’m slowly learning to accept imperfection into my life. Also, I’m doing my best to erase the many expectations I have so I could one day master the art of letting go and freeing myself to simple happiness and joy.
A natural drama queen.
Compared to before, I’m less dramatic nowadays. Language-wise, I attempt to blog flawlessly in English and speak proper English online with my peers. Call me a Grammar Nazi all you want, but that’s how I roll. I only converse in perfect English in formal situations and during my dramatic outbursts. Otherwise, I’m absolutely capable of communicating like the average Malaysian!
It’s a pleasure to learn and discover new things.
It’s a different issue altogether when you’re forced to learn for the sake of getting good grades, though. Other than that, I’m open to new information and knowledge anytime! I especially would like to learn more languages and pick up new musical instruments.
Travelling around the world, participating in artistic photoshoots, performing in a band, writing a book…
…are just some of the things I would love to do in the near future, hopefully!
When it comes to social relationships,
the basic rules apply. If you respect me, I’ll respect you. If you happen to be someone who has low EQ skills, I’ll try to be tolerant but my patience is definitely limited. I’m observant when it comes to human behaviour. I’m a person of many opinions, but I don’t voice them out unless I trust you enough; I’m very honest and candid when it comes to the people I can trust. Even though I trust very easily, not everybody can prove that they’re all that nice. Hurt me, and I’ll only defend myself if necessary. Hurt my family or my friends –
you won’t find me holding back.
Is there anything else you would like to know about me?Throw me your questions and/or doubts
here! I honestly have nothing to hide, so you’ll expect the truth and nothing but the truth.
It’s only how I phrase my answers that you’ll have to be aware of.
Or…you can click
hereto go back to reading!
19:16
Wednesday, 5 October 2011
Uncertain.
I'm tired.
I'm really tired.People care. They really do.
But instead of feeling comforted and assured, I'm more upset and pressured than before.
I don't want to be a hypocrite - but I have to
discreetly get this out of my system.
I'm really lonely, and I feel very left out.
Lost, even.
I don't belong any longer.
Being known is nice,
but I wanted to be known for my talent,
for me.
At the end of the day,
I'm just the girl with cancer.
Nothing more?
I might survive.
Nothing less?
I might die young.
I'm sticking out for all the wrong reasons.
This wasn't how I imagined things to be like.
I need some time to myself.
Misinterpreted?
Or understood?
You decide.
Irony noted, that's for sure.
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