©Matthew Stone.
To most of you, I have been MIA from the online world. I have my reasons though.

Truthfully, I just wanted to escape from the outside world a bit. This might sound strange to you, because since I'm still pretty much isolated from civilisation - basically wanting to know the ins and outs and keeping in sync with what my friends are up to should be what I'm constantly doing to make me feel included.

Yes, I'm not afraid to admit it. I feel very left out.

If that isn't the worst of things, my hopes of me being cancer-free after my last chemotherapy session were shattered the moment I went for my PET scan last Friday - bringing me both bad news and good news.



It took me a few days to get over it. Miraculously, I got my head back and I will be undergoing radiotherapy starting from next Monday onwards if everything works out smoothly. Treatment will be done in Johor Bahru, by the way, and not in Malacca. Since radiotherapy has to be done everyday at a fixed time, it is impossible for my parents and I to literally 'camp out at the hospital in Malacca everyday', quoting my doctor in Malacca.

So unfortunately, I'm nowhere near freedom yet. I owe a lot of my friends outings after SPM, like what I had promised them. And I'm really sorry to say, I'm unable to fulfil any of those promises for now. Not till I'm officially cancer-free, which might take a few more months, to be honest. My sincerest apologies, friends.

Life has been hectic and chaotic, as always. However, I do promise I'll respond to whatever notifications I have on Facebook real soon, even if it's already stale news to the rest of you.

I'll be back with another update soon, hopefully. Apparently, keeping all these negative emotions inside of me is very unhealthy for me being a cancer patient. I'll have to blog here often to express myself in the most positive manner possible and keep myself sane.

Cheers.

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It’s not an English name I came up with for myself. My mother is indeed a genius in coming up with such a splendid name for me. Although my name has been unfortunately mutilated (nicknames are excluded) over the past years, full credits to my mum for my current identity.

I’m certainly looking forward to changing the word ‘patient’ to ‘survivor’! If you’re interested to read about my journey in battling lymphoma, you can click here to proceed to my cancer blog.

Ironic, I know; this blog is mainly pink instead. I like all colours actually, but I find myself having an affinity to the colour green. In fact, I can safely say that green is my soul colour.

Languages, music, fashion, photography, cultures, dance, literature, writing; just about anything, really. The arts truly intrigue me, especially thought-provoking pieces. Of course, the arts play a major role in inspiring me in my everyday life.

I don’t have a favourite genre – I read any book that interests me!

I am a trained right-hander from young, since apparently being left-handed is considered ‘wrong’. Basically, I’m ambidextrous! No wonder I find it easier to air guitar using my left hand than my right; I simply relate to the arts than subjects that deal with logical thinking better, too.

A stubborn Bull I am, too. I abhor being rushed. I prefer doing matters at my own reasonable pace. I don’t particularly like changes in my routine, but I can adapt quite easily. I’m a very practical person as well. I enjoy the beautiful things in life, but that doesn’t make me shun ugliness at all. Besides, it all depends on how one perceives beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder!

Still am, but I’m slowly learning to accept imperfection into my life. Also, I’m doing my best to erase the many expectations I have so I could one day master the art of letting go and freeing myself to simple happiness and joy.

Compared to before, I’m less dramatic nowadays. Language-wise, I attempt to blog flawlessly in English and speak proper English online with my peers. Call me a Grammar Nazi all you want, but that’s how I roll. I only converse in perfect English in formal situations and during my dramatic outbursts. Otherwise, I’m absolutely capable of communicating like the average Malaysian!

It’s a different issue altogether when you’re forced to learn for the sake of getting good grades, though. Other than that, I’m open to new information and knowledge anytime! I especially would like to learn more languages and pick up new musical instruments.

…are just some of the things I would love to do in the near future, hopefully!

the basic rules apply. If you respect me, I’ll respect you. If you happen to be someone who has low EQ skills, I’ll try to be tolerant but my patience is definitely limited. I’m observant when it comes to human behaviour. I’m a person of many opinions, but I don’t voice them out unless I trust you enough; I’m very honest and candid when it comes to the people I can trust. Even though I trust very easily, not everybody can prove that they’re all that nice. Hurt me, and I’ll only defend myself if necessary. Hurt my family or my friends – you won’t find me holding back.

Is there anything else you would like to know about me?
Throw me your questions and/or doubts here! I honestly have nothing to hide, so you’ll expect the truth and nothing but the truth.

It’s only how I phrase my answers that you’ll have to be aware of.
Or…you can click hereto go back to reading!

©Matthew Stone.
To most of you, I have been MIA from the online world. I have my reasons though.

Truthfully, I just wanted to escape from the outside world a bit. This might sound strange to you, because since I'm still pretty much isolated from civilisation - basically wanting to know the ins and outs and keeping in sync with what my friends are up to should be what I'm constantly doing to make me feel included.

Yes, I'm not afraid to admit it. I feel very left out.

If that isn't the worst of things, my hopes of me being cancer-free after my last chemotherapy session were shattered the moment I went for my PET scan last Friday - bringing me both bad news and good news.



It took me a few days to get over it. Miraculously, I got my head back and I will be undergoing radiotherapy starting from next Monday onwards if everything works out smoothly. Treatment will be done in Johor Bahru, by the way, and not in Malacca. Since radiotherapy has to be done everyday at a fixed time, it is impossible for my parents and I to literally 'camp out at the hospital in Malacca everyday', quoting my doctor in Malacca.

So unfortunately, I'm nowhere near freedom yet. I owe a lot of my friends outings after SPM, like what I had promised them. And I'm really sorry to say, I'm unable to fulfil any of those promises for now. Not till I'm officially cancer-free, which might take a few more months, to be honest. My sincerest apologies, friends.

Life has been hectic and chaotic, as always. However, I do promise I'll respond to whatever notifications I have on Facebook real soon, even if it's already stale news to the rest of you.

I'll be back with another update soon, hopefully. Apparently, keeping all these negative emotions inside of me is very unhealthy for me being a cancer patient. I'll have to blog here often to express myself in the most positive manner possible and keep myself sane.

Cheers.

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