©Elizabeth.Brooke

I really need to start going on a hiatus soon. 'So much to do, so little time.' This phrase never fails to apply to me. It's bad enough that I'm terrible at handling time. But knowing that the hour, minute and second hands are certainly waiting for no one, especially me - it doesn't help one bit.

Easy enough for me to just type it down, I don't think I'm capable of going on a serious hiatus anyway. Not till the start of November, to be honest.

I'm surrounded by two years' worth of Biology notes, and the sight of them is making me really guilty as to why I'm still here, blogging about the SPM blues. I don't need to add to the already-existing stress and pressure experienced by my fellow fifth-formers. My bad there, do accept my sincerest apologies. Other than my mother, a few close friends and the nurses who have tended to me in the hospital, my blog is one more place to rant about how I'm really not ready for this apparent life-deciding exam.

What really annoys me is that I know I'm actually capable of scoring well for SPM. Due to my condition, a lot of people have lowered their expectations on me concerning my results. I can deal with not disappointing people, but the thought of not doing well when I actually can - it disturbs me greatly, really. Unexpected side-effects from chemotherapy and fatigue consumes quite a lot of my time already. Sheesh. It doesn't help how easily distracted and unfocused I can get as well.

On another note, I have been listening to a lot of Zee Avi. I'm proud that she's a Malaysian, and even more at the fact that she composed such beautiful lyrics I can relate to. I might introduce a few of my favourites when I feel that I have achieved clearer ideas and notions about the ten subjects I'm sitting for SPM.

Cheers to us mugging and cramming!

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It’s not an English name I came up with for myself. My mother is indeed a genius in coming up with such a splendid name for me. Although my name has been unfortunately mutilated (nicknames are excluded) over the past years, full credits to my mum for my current identity.

I’m certainly looking forward to changing the word ‘patient’ to ‘survivor’! If you’re interested to read about my journey in battling lymphoma, you can click here to proceed to my cancer blog.

Ironic, I know; this blog is mainly pink instead. I like all colours actually, but I find myself having an affinity to the colour green. In fact, I can safely say that green is my soul colour.

Languages, music, fashion, photography, cultures, dance, literature, writing; just about anything, really. The arts truly intrigue me, especially thought-provoking pieces. Of course, the arts play a major role in inspiring me in my everyday life.

I don’t have a favourite genre – I read any book that interests me!

I am a trained right-hander from young, since apparently being left-handed is considered ‘wrong’. Basically, I’m ambidextrous! No wonder I find it easier to air guitar using my left hand than my right; I simply relate to the arts than subjects that deal with logical thinking better, too.

A stubborn Bull I am, too. I abhor being rushed. I prefer doing matters at my own reasonable pace. I don’t particularly like changes in my routine, but I can adapt quite easily. I’m a very practical person as well. I enjoy the beautiful things in life, but that doesn’t make me shun ugliness at all. Besides, it all depends on how one perceives beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder!

Still am, but I’m slowly learning to accept imperfection into my life. Also, I’m doing my best to erase the many expectations I have so I could one day master the art of letting go and freeing myself to simple happiness and joy.

Compared to before, I’m less dramatic nowadays. Language-wise, I attempt to blog flawlessly in English and speak proper English online with my peers. Call me a Grammar Nazi all you want, but that’s how I roll. I only converse in perfect English in formal situations and during my dramatic outbursts. Otherwise, I’m absolutely capable of communicating like the average Malaysian!

It’s a different issue altogether when you’re forced to learn for the sake of getting good grades, though. Other than that, I’m open to new information and knowledge anytime! I especially would like to learn more languages and pick up new musical instruments.

…are just some of the things I would love to do in the near future, hopefully!

the basic rules apply. If you respect me, I’ll respect you. If you happen to be someone who has low EQ skills, I’ll try to be tolerant but my patience is definitely limited. I’m observant when it comes to human behaviour. I’m a person of many opinions, but I don’t voice them out unless I trust you enough; I’m very honest and candid when it comes to the people I can trust. Even though I trust very easily, not everybody can prove that they’re all that nice. Hurt me, and I’ll only defend myself if necessary. Hurt my family or my friends – you won’t find me holding back.

Is there anything else you would like to know about me?
Throw me your questions and/or doubts here! I honestly have nothing to hide, so you’ll expect the truth and nothing but the truth.

It’s only how I phrase my answers that you’ll have to be aware of.
Or…you can click hereto go back to reading!

©Elizabeth.Brooke

I really need to start going on a hiatus soon. 'So much to do, so little time.' This phrase never fails to apply to me. It's bad enough that I'm terrible at handling time. But knowing that the hour, minute and second hands are certainly waiting for no one, especially me - it doesn't help one bit.

Easy enough for me to just type it down, I don't think I'm capable of going on a serious hiatus anyway. Not till the start of November, to be honest.

I'm surrounded by two years' worth of Biology notes, and the sight of them is making me really guilty as to why I'm still here, blogging about the SPM blues. I don't need to add to the already-existing stress and pressure experienced by my fellow fifth-formers. My bad there, do accept my sincerest apologies. Other than my mother, a few close friends and the nurses who have tended to me in the hospital, my blog is one more place to rant about how I'm really not ready for this apparent life-deciding exam.

What really annoys me is that I know I'm actually capable of scoring well for SPM. Due to my condition, a lot of people have lowered their expectations on me concerning my results. I can deal with not disappointing people, but the thought of not doing well when I actually can - it disturbs me greatly, really. Unexpected side-effects from chemotherapy and fatigue consumes quite a lot of my time already. Sheesh. It doesn't help how easily distracted and unfocused I can get as well.

On another note, I have been listening to a lot of Zee Avi. I'm proud that she's a Malaysian, and even more at the fact that she composed such beautiful lyrics I can relate to. I might introduce a few of my favourites when I feel that I have achieved clearer ideas and notions about the ten subjects I'm sitting for SPM.

Cheers to us mugging and cramming!

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