Hello readers.
You might be wondering about this certain question,
as you lay your eyes on this photo of mine.

Why the need for a shower cap?

Dear readers,
before I move on to answering that question of yours,
let me enlighten you all about something.

I have a few close friends, and some juniors,
that have been asking me this question,
that I really abhor.

"Are you going to lose your hair?"

All of them,
asked me this question,
in those very same words.

The then me was patient enough with the aforementioned question.
I answered them, even though I hated this question.

Truthfully,
I just saw no point in them asking an obvious question.
It's like,
are you concerned about my hair and the way I look like,
more than my health?

I blogged about this issue before,
in hopes of people to not ask said question again.

But no,
I still get people asking me question.

Why..?

I confided in my mum about this.
I told my mum how pissed I was in people asking this question.

In the end,
the solution my mother offered?

"Just ignore the text if it pisses you off.
Reply only when you feel like it.
It's not healthy for you to store negative emotions in you."

So I took her advice.

But finally,
the hair loss became more apparent from Wednesday onwards.

For my dear readers' information,
cancer patients who undergo chemotherapy do not just lose their hair,
the hair that crowns your head.

Patients who go for chemo,
also lose their body hair - on their arms and legs.
Not forgetting your eyebrows and eyelashes.
And also, yes,
pubic hair.

I'm just being honest with my readers about the realities of undergoing chemotherapy as a cancer patient.

Those things you see in the movies and serial dramas?
Exaggerated.
Seriously.

So yes,
I admit.

This hair loss thing finally got to me.
I won't deny it.

I get scared every time I randomly run my fingers through my hair,
and a whole clump of hair comes out.

I'm not afraid of the prospect of going bald,
I'm just scared of the process of losing my hair.

My mane has been protecting my head for the past 17 years of my life.
From the sun, the rain,
and it contributes a whole damn lot in maintaining my already low confidence level.

Which is why losing my mane like this,
really freaks me out.

I rather go bald,
then to endure this.

So yes,
to every one of you,

I am shaving my head bald.

Go figure.
;)

Be prepared for my new look y'all.

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It’s not an English name I came up with for myself. My mother is indeed a genius in coming up with such a splendid name for me. Although my name has been unfortunately mutilated (nicknames are excluded) over the past years, full credits to my mum for my current identity.

I’m certainly looking forward to changing the word ‘patient’ to ‘survivor’! If you’re interested to read about my journey in battling lymphoma, you can click here to proceed to my cancer blog.

Ironic, I know; this blog is mainly pink instead. I like all colours actually, but I find myself having an affinity to the colour green. In fact, I can safely say that green is my soul colour.

Languages, music, fashion, photography, cultures, dance, literature, writing; just about anything, really. The arts truly intrigue me, especially thought-provoking pieces. Of course, the arts play a major role in inspiring me in my everyday life.

I don’t have a favourite genre – I read any book that interests me!

I am a trained right-hander from young, since apparently being left-handed is considered ‘wrong’. Basically, I’m ambidextrous! No wonder I find it easier to air guitar using my left hand than my right; I simply relate to the arts than subjects that deal with logical thinking better, too.

A stubborn Bull I am, too. I abhor being rushed. I prefer doing matters at my own reasonable pace. I don’t particularly like changes in my routine, but I can adapt quite easily. I’m a very practical person as well. I enjoy the beautiful things in life, but that doesn’t make me shun ugliness at all. Besides, it all depends on how one perceives beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder!

Still am, but I’m slowly learning to accept imperfection into my life. Also, I’m doing my best to erase the many expectations I have so I could one day master the art of letting go and freeing myself to simple happiness and joy.

Compared to before, I’m less dramatic nowadays. Language-wise, I attempt to blog flawlessly in English and speak proper English online with my peers. Call me a Grammar Nazi all you want, but that’s how I roll. I only converse in perfect English in formal situations and during my dramatic outbursts. Otherwise, I’m absolutely capable of communicating like the average Malaysian!

It’s a different issue altogether when you’re forced to learn for the sake of getting good grades, though. Other than that, I’m open to new information and knowledge anytime! I especially would like to learn more languages and pick up new musical instruments.

…are just some of the things I would love to do in the near future, hopefully!

the basic rules apply. If you respect me, I’ll respect you. If you happen to be someone who has low EQ skills, I’ll try to be tolerant but my patience is definitely limited. I’m observant when it comes to human behaviour. I’m a person of many opinions, but I don’t voice them out unless I trust you enough; I’m very honest and candid when it comes to the people I can trust. Even though I trust very easily, not everybody can prove that they’re all that nice. Hurt me, and I’ll only defend myself if necessary. Hurt my family or my friends – you won’t find me holding back.

Is there anything else you would like to know about me?
Throw me your questions and/or doubts here! I honestly have nothing to hide, so you’ll expect the truth and nothing but the truth.

It’s only how I phrase my answers that you’ll have to be aware of.
Or…you can click hereto go back to reading!

Hello readers.
You might be wondering about this certain question,
as you lay your eyes on this photo of mine.

Why the need for a shower cap?

Dear readers,
before I move on to answering that question of yours,
let me enlighten you all about something.

I have a few close friends, and some juniors,
that have been asking me this question,
that I really abhor.

"Are you going to lose your hair?"

All of them,
asked me this question,
in those very same words.

The then me was patient enough with the aforementioned question.
I answered them, even though I hated this question.

Truthfully,
I just saw no point in them asking an obvious question.
It's like,
are you concerned about my hair and the way I look like,
more than my health?

I blogged about this issue before,
in hopes of people to not ask said question again.

But no,
I still get people asking me question.

Why..?

I confided in my mum about this.
I told my mum how pissed I was in people asking this question.

In the end,
the solution my mother offered?

"Just ignore the text if it pisses you off.
Reply only when you feel like it.
It's not healthy for you to store negative emotions in you."

So I took her advice.

But finally,
the hair loss became more apparent from Wednesday onwards.

For my dear readers' information,
cancer patients who undergo chemotherapy do not just lose their hair,
the hair that crowns your head.

Patients who go for chemo,
also lose their body hair - on their arms and legs.
Not forgetting your eyebrows and eyelashes.
And also, yes,
pubic hair.

I'm just being honest with my readers about the realities of undergoing chemotherapy as a cancer patient.

Those things you see in the movies and serial dramas?
Exaggerated.
Seriously.

So yes,
I admit.

This hair loss thing finally got to me.
I won't deny it.

I get scared every time I randomly run my fingers through my hair,
and a whole clump of hair comes out.

I'm not afraid of the prospect of going bald,
I'm just scared of the process of losing my hair.

My mane has been protecting my head for the past 17 years of my life.
From the sun, the rain,
and it contributes a whole damn lot in maintaining my already low confidence level.

Which is why losing my mane like this,
really freaks me out.

I rather go bald,
then to endure this.

So yes,
to every one of you,

I am shaving my head bald.

Go figure.
;)

Be prepared for my new look y'all.

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