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Tuesday, 1 September 2009
Tuesday, 1 September 2009
Thought IV.
"I'm really lost.
I'm quite aware of what to do, but where to start?
I honestly have no motivation in anything I'm doing now, and the fact that I used to be such a passionate human for my interests, hurts me even more.
I don't know why I'm even in this world in the first place, and I just feel like honest crap right now.
I feel like it's getting harder to communicate with my parents, and the fact that kor is not always at home for me to rant at anymore doesn't help as well, since he's the other one that's clear of what's the ins and outs that are going on at home.
School is one place that I like and dislike at the same time, for it's the only place I can go wack with my friends and really have some fun and laughter.
I'm quite aware of what to do, but where to start?
I honestly have no motivation in anything I'm doing now, and the fact that I used to be such a passionate human for my interests, hurts me even more.
I don't know why I'm even in this world in the first place, and I just feel like honest crap right now.
I feel like it's getting harder to communicate with my parents, and the fact that kor is not always at home for me to rant at anymore doesn't help as well, since he's the other one that's clear of what's the ins and outs that are going on at home.
School is one place that I like and dislike at the same time, for it's the only place I can go wack with my friends and really have some fun and laughter.
For laughter is almost like a taboo in this house nowadays.
Crying is almost routine-like, and I just seem to piss my parents off, being unable to please them in so many aspects.
I'm just a teen, going through a phase called 'growing up'. As much as I don't want to rebel, as much as my hormones are going crazier and wilder by the day, as much as I just want to be the ideal daughter the both of you want..
I just can't.
I'm sorry, I can't be perfect.
I need some time to sort myself.
Life is like a dramatic movie to me, currently.
So yearh, if you regard me as a friend, just leave me be.
I don't want to bring you awesome people into my troubles and burden you all with them. (:
Till I have a saner mind."
I'm just a teen, going through a phase called 'growing up'. As much as I don't want to rebel, as much as my hormones are going crazier and wilder by the day, as much as I just want to be the ideal daughter the both of you want..
I just can't.
I'm sorry, I can't be perfect.
I need some time to sort myself.
Life is like a dramatic movie to me, currently.
So yearh, if you regard me as a friend, just leave me be.
I don't want to bring you awesome people into my troubles and burden you all with them. (:
Till I have a saner mind."

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