"Loving you, loving me."

That date, reminds me without fail what a trying day I had on that very same day.

It tested me on many issues.

Issues that make up what kind of individual I would be, and could be in the future.

For example, I got so pissed with Fairuz, I screamed at her in front on Munnie and Min Wen without a care, considering that I'm one who is supposedly the calm and concise one.

I'm not ashamed to admit, I stormed to the toilet near the canteen next to the hall, not caring whether the doors of the cubicles could be locked or not, and cried my eyes out there.

Anger got to me, yes that is very true indeed.

In any case, a big thank you to Munnie for being so concerned for me. (:

I just had a bad day then.

Not many people are aware of it though.

Speaking of which, it was then I realized who were the true friends that would be there for me when I'm at my worst.

I shall definitely honour them here, for they deserve it so.

Guppy, my tuition buddy for Biology, Chemistry and Add Math, she consoled me in her own way, and she listens to me when I needed someone to hear me out about the politics in our class and also my problems. She won't ever backstab me, and it's definitely comforting to have that bit of information deeply etched in my head. Thank you crazy friend that never fails to make me laugh out loud at your actions. Especially what recently happened in Chemistry and Biology tuition. Read her blog for the full story xD Oh yeah, and thanks loads for your correction tape and that last piece of graph paper. Saved my life indeed. God bless you.

Jia Ying, who calls me granny. I realized that she is always telling me to chill, as she said that I'm overstressed, overworked, overexhausted. She's super nice, as if nobody knows that. But yeah, she was that kind to lend me her books so that I can catch up with my studies, and offered me tissues when I cried my eyes out once more, even though she had the flu and badly needed the tissues for herself, that I can totally understand. Thank you so muchies (=

My dear scandal partner. That darling who called me Tiger-chan. The same girl who drew that awesome message on the plastic bag that has my meds in it. Anna-chan who had constantly been there for me. Even though I was safely hidden from the eyes of my other classmates (or so I thought), Anna-chan came over not long after and wiped my tears away with her hands. And patted my head at the same time. No, you did not mess up my hair, no worries x]

What can beat all of that, is that she sneaked out of the classroom through the back door all of a sudden. Even I myself did not realized it till Guppy and Jia Ying told me so. She is definitely in the making of a great Ninja, other than Azri who uses her skills against me violently. xP Minutes later, Anna dear came back. And with her she brought..

..a few stalks of flowers all the way from downstairs.

Yes, how sweet of her.

My heart practically melted when I finally registered into my brain what was going on.

Just to cheer me up, she risked getting caught by Puan Azalina for walking around without a class pass, she risked getting caught by any other teacher who could had reprimanded her for damaging school property, she risked it all.

All for me.

"Domo arigatou ne, Anna-chan."

I really appreciate all that you had done for me, and always know that you are AWESOME in your own way. Do. Not. Ever. Change. ;)

Next up, we have the Wicked Wizard of the West, Azri. She saw me feeling down as well, and constantly told me the same thing over and over to return that bit of cheer to me.


Which I'm then forced to do so and with that, endorphins are naturally released in me, which did make me feel a whole lot better. Thank you, Azri the meanie. Who can be nice when she wants to. :P

Then there's Anith and Liyana whom I hardly talk to. Boy, do I feel that bit of guilt in me. And by just talking some stuff over with them, I realized that actually, we do have a lot in common, especially Anith. Liyana was practically welcoming me as a new family member at their table. I felt really accepted then, even if it did hurt knowing that I had lost a few friends, whom I thought were friends but actually, are slowly but surely bringing me down with their actions. So thanks Anith and Liyana, even if it really looked like I had ignored you guys in class, and even was impatient most of the time with y'all, you guys are still treating me so nicely. Thanks, really.

Jaafar who was trying to make me tell her what's wrong, didn't managed to do so, since I didn't want to tell her as the person involved was sitting right next to me then. But that person knows very well it's her when I said quite loudly that I didn't want to talk about it as it was a long story.

Oh yeah, guess what?

That same person, she saw me cried.

She didn't apologize though.

What a shame.

I finally saw her true colours.

Man, too bad her colours aren't in harmony at all.

But thanks Jaafar, for being concerned. And at least being more of a friend by sensing that something is way wrong with me then. :)

Of course, these are the ones who made my day.

But, I have more true friends that these, those little actions make up a long way in my life.

Those whom I truly regard as friends in school, most of them are scattered in different classes. Though they seem far, but knowing that they are there for me? That makes me feel a whole lot better.

They are the ones who will keep me going in this dreadful political scene, till I graduate from high school.

They know who they are, and a big thank you from me to them for just..being my friends. :')

And then there are my tuition mates, my beloved RYLA-rians, the Rehab Gang, Terri and Dee who have so much in common with me, and those that had inspired me, believed in me, and really do regard me as their friend..my sincerest thanks as well for making the me of today. :]

And of course, Miss Natalie Chin.

One darn cheerful girl and super easy to talk to. I had just recovered from crying twice in that same day, and even though I didn't tell her anything, just talking to her felt great. She even made me smiled within seconds. :) She's a dear, really. Thanks fellow Green lover :D

Music class that day, was alright.

After a day full of problems and yesh, we can't miss out the word drama, music class was a nice change from the stressing environment in class.

It's those little things in life that brings the smile back on my face.

And the people that are responsible for them?

From the bottom of my heart, from this unimportant being..

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It’s not an English name I came up with for myself. My mother is indeed a genius in coming up with such a splendid name for me. Although my name has been unfortunately mutilated (nicknames are excluded) over the past years, full credits to my mum for my current identity.

I’m certainly looking forward to changing the word ‘patient’ to ‘survivor’! If you’re interested to read about my journey in battling lymphoma, you can click here to proceed to my cancer blog.

Ironic, I know; this blog is mainly pink instead. I like all colours actually, but I find myself having an affinity to the colour green. In fact, I can safely say that green is my soul colour.

Languages, music, fashion, photography, cultures, dance, literature, writing; just about anything, really. The arts truly intrigue me, especially thought-provoking pieces. Of course, the arts play a major role in inspiring me in my everyday life.

I don’t have a favourite genre – I read any book that interests me!

I am a trained right-hander from young, since apparently being left-handed is considered ‘wrong’. Basically, I’m ambidextrous! No wonder I find it easier to air guitar using my left hand than my right; I simply relate to the arts than subjects that deal with logical thinking better, too.

A stubborn Bull I am, too. I abhor being rushed. I prefer doing matters at my own reasonable pace. I don’t particularly like changes in my routine, but I can adapt quite easily. I’m a very practical person as well. I enjoy the beautiful things in life, but that doesn’t make me shun ugliness at all. Besides, it all depends on how one perceives beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder!

Still am, but I’m slowly learning to accept imperfection into my life. Also, I’m doing my best to erase the many expectations I have so I could one day master the art of letting go and freeing myself to simple happiness and joy.

Compared to before, I’m less dramatic nowadays. Language-wise, I attempt to blog flawlessly in English and speak proper English online with my peers. Call me a Grammar Nazi all you want, but that’s how I roll. I only converse in perfect English in formal situations and during my dramatic outbursts. Otherwise, I’m absolutely capable of communicating like the average Malaysian!

It’s a different issue altogether when you’re forced to learn for the sake of getting good grades, though. Other than that, I’m open to new information and knowledge anytime! I especially would like to learn more languages and pick up new musical instruments.

…are just some of the things I would love to do in the near future, hopefully!

the basic rules apply. If you respect me, I’ll respect you. If you happen to be someone who has low EQ skills, I’ll try to be tolerant but my patience is definitely limited. I’m observant when it comes to human behaviour. I’m a person of many opinions, but I don’t voice them out unless I trust you enough; I’m very honest and candid when it comes to the people I can trust. Even though I trust very easily, not everybody can prove that they’re all that nice. Hurt me, and I’ll only defend myself if necessary. Hurt my family or my friends – you won’t find me holding back.

Is there anything else you would like to know about me?
Throw me your questions and/or doubts here! I honestly have nothing to hide, so you’ll expect the truth and nothing but the truth.

It’s only how I phrase my answers that you’ll have to be aware of.
Or…you can click hereto go back to reading!

"Loving you, loving me."

That date, reminds me without fail what a trying day I had on that very same day.

It tested me on many issues.

Issues that make up what kind of individual I would be, and could be in the future.

For example, I got so pissed with Fairuz, I screamed at her in front on Munnie and Min Wen without a care, considering that I'm one who is supposedly the calm and concise one.

I'm not ashamed to admit, I stormed to the toilet near the canteen next to the hall, not caring whether the doors of the cubicles could be locked or not, and cried my eyes out there.

Anger got to me, yes that is very true indeed.

In any case, a big thank you to Munnie for being so concerned for me. (:

I just had a bad day then.

Not many people are aware of it though.

Speaking of which, it was then I realized who were the true friends that would be there for me when I'm at my worst.

I shall definitely honour them here, for they deserve it so.

Guppy, my tuition buddy for Biology, Chemistry and Add Math, she consoled me in her own way, and she listens to me when I needed someone to hear me out about the politics in our class and also my problems. She won't ever backstab me, and it's definitely comforting to have that bit of information deeply etched in my head. Thank you crazy friend that never fails to make me laugh out loud at your actions. Especially what recently happened in Chemistry and Biology tuition. Read her blog for the full story xD Oh yeah, and thanks loads for your correction tape and that last piece of graph paper. Saved my life indeed. God bless you.

Jia Ying, who calls me granny. I realized that she is always telling me to chill, as she said that I'm overstressed, overworked, overexhausted. She's super nice, as if nobody knows that. But yeah, she was that kind to lend me her books so that I can catch up with my studies, and offered me tissues when I cried my eyes out once more, even though she had the flu and badly needed the tissues for herself, that I can totally understand. Thank you so muchies (=

My dear scandal partner. That darling who called me Tiger-chan. The same girl who drew that awesome message on the plastic bag that has my meds in it. Anna-chan who had constantly been there for me. Even though I was safely hidden from the eyes of my other classmates (or so I thought), Anna-chan came over not long after and wiped my tears away with her hands. And patted my head at the same time. No, you did not mess up my hair, no worries x]

What can beat all of that, is that she sneaked out of the classroom through the back door all of a sudden. Even I myself did not realized it till Guppy and Jia Ying told me so. She is definitely in the making of a great Ninja, other than Azri who uses her skills against me violently. xP Minutes later, Anna dear came back. And with her she brought..

..a few stalks of flowers all the way from downstairs.

Yes, how sweet of her.

My heart practically melted when I finally registered into my brain what was going on.

Just to cheer me up, she risked getting caught by Puan Azalina for walking around without a class pass, she risked getting caught by any other teacher who could had reprimanded her for damaging school property, she risked it all.

All for me.

"Domo arigatou ne, Anna-chan."

I really appreciate all that you had done for me, and always know that you are AWESOME in your own way. Do. Not. Ever. Change. ;)

Next up, we have the Wicked Wizard of the West, Azri. She saw me feeling down as well, and constantly told me the same thing over and over to return that bit of cheer to me.


Which I'm then forced to do so and with that, endorphins are naturally released in me, which did make me feel a whole lot better. Thank you, Azri the meanie. Who can be nice when she wants to. :P

Then there's Anith and Liyana whom I hardly talk to. Boy, do I feel that bit of guilt in me. And by just talking some stuff over with them, I realized that actually, we do have a lot in common, especially Anith. Liyana was practically welcoming me as a new family member at their table. I felt really accepted then, even if it did hurt knowing that I had lost a few friends, whom I thought were friends but actually, are slowly but surely bringing me down with their actions. So thanks Anith and Liyana, even if it really looked like I had ignored you guys in class, and even was impatient most of the time with y'all, you guys are still treating me so nicely. Thanks, really.

Jaafar who was trying to make me tell her what's wrong, didn't managed to do so, since I didn't want to tell her as the person involved was sitting right next to me then. But that person knows very well it's her when I said quite loudly that I didn't want to talk about it as it was a long story.

Oh yeah, guess what?

That same person, she saw me cried.

She didn't apologize though.

What a shame.

I finally saw her true colours.

Man, too bad her colours aren't in harmony at all.

But thanks Jaafar, for being concerned. And at least being more of a friend by sensing that something is way wrong with me then. :)

Of course, these are the ones who made my day.

But, I have more true friends that these, those little actions make up a long way in my life.

Those whom I truly regard as friends in school, most of them are scattered in different classes. Though they seem far, but knowing that they are there for me? That makes me feel a whole lot better.

They are the ones who will keep me going in this dreadful political scene, till I graduate from high school.

They know who they are, and a big thank you from me to them for just..being my friends. :')

And then there are my tuition mates, my beloved RYLA-rians, the Rehab Gang, Terri and Dee who have so much in common with me, and those that had inspired me, believed in me, and really do regard me as their friend..my sincerest thanks as well for making the me of today. :]

And of course, Miss Natalie Chin.

One darn cheerful girl and super easy to talk to. I had just recovered from crying twice in that same day, and even though I didn't tell her anything, just talking to her felt great. She even made me smiled within seconds. :) She's a dear, really. Thanks fellow Green lover :D

Music class that day, was alright.

After a day full of problems and yesh, we can't miss out the word drama, music class was a nice change from the stressing environment in class.

It's those little things in life that brings the smile back on my face.

And the people that are responsible for them?

From the bottom of my heart, from this unimportant being..

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