"Will anybody please..
Listen to me?
Hear me speak?
Bother to care what I say?"
SIGS had a Musical Jambouree earlier.

According to Puan Yew, we made history with the first East Meets West music concept in Johor Bahru, with the instrumental ensemble of Caklempong and Gamelan with our school's famous brass band. It was a pretty awesome experience, and we're going to perfect it even more, 'cos we're doing it at a higher level next year. What more with Puan Hajah Norizah saying she wants it big next year. So we shall see then.

Before the performance though, Amoi approached me all of a sudden.

And of course, after being in the same class with Amoi for almost four months now, I'd naturally expected her to come and bug me with some minor matter to get me all frustrated and annoyed, in a good manner of course.

Instead, what I got was totally out of the blue and sudden for me at that time.

"Leonie, are you okay?"
Okay, flabbergasted much?

Initially, I thought, this should be easy to answer, of course I'm okay. Like..why shouldn't I be?

Problem is, it took me a whole ten seconds or so to try and process an answer for her.

There and then, without answering yet, Amoi just embraced me in the corner of the hall, not a care whether anyone else were looking or not.

"Leonie, why are you not okay? Is something wrong? Ah Yuan said you have unbalanced emotions. So I want to make sure you are okay before I leave for camp."
I swear upon my life, I was so touched, I was tearing up at the spot.

Because I know very well, Amoi would only speak to me in English with that strong Malay accent of hers, for only two reasons.

One, is definitely to annoy the hell out of me.

Secondly, and the most likely, is to make sure I can get her loud and clear, since she knows I can't speak half as normal and smoothly in Malay than in English.

Of course, Amoi is hardly this super nice to me, and me alone. So this was a rare occasion indeed.

But really..so far, she was the only one who made such a huge effort to make sure I was okay.

So, I merely answered..


And I never thought I would actually talk to Amoi like this again, unless I was possessed. Or like that time when she was almost sent to Sekolah Teknik.

Amoi just went "awwwww.." and gave me a huge bear hug.

Though, obviously she still wasn't convinced that I was even anywhere near okay, so she offered me a snack she bought from the stall, telling me that she won't be here to take care of me for a few days, so this is to remind me of her.

Man, I never felt better after so many days of what seems to be endless suffering and mental torture, all in one emotionally unstable human.

Thanks Amoi..just for being there when I needed it.

And thanks Ah Yuan..for noticing that I had unbalanced emotions and telling Amoi about it.

I guess this sums up a few things.

When Leonie gets emotionally unbalanced in school, it means that Leonie really couldn't cope anymore. 'Cos from what I'd evaluated from my own behaviour in school, I don't usually throw a tantrum or ever had a bad mood, unless I'm really sick and stressed about something or more. I normally try to keep it all in me, and put on that smile to show to everyone that I was fine. So yeah..it's quite easy actually to notice the change of emotions in me.

Another thing is, normally the people that you aren't really very close to are the ones that would really lend you a helping hand when you need it. The people that are right next to you, and said that they are willing to hear you out, you would rant at them. Too bad, the next minute you realized, it's either you're rudely interrupted or just plainly ignored by them just starting another conversation, not bothered with your difficulties and just moving on with theirs.

Last but definitely not the least..

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It’s not an English name I came up with for myself. My mother is indeed a genius in coming up with such a splendid name for me. Although my name has been unfortunately mutilated (nicknames are excluded) over the past years, full credits to my mum for my current identity.

I’m certainly looking forward to changing the word ‘patient’ to ‘survivor’! If you’re interested to read about my journey in battling lymphoma, you can click here to proceed to my cancer blog.

Ironic, I know; this blog is mainly pink instead. I like all colours actually, but I find myself having an affinity to the colour green. In fact, I can safely say that green is my soul colour.

Languages, music, fashion, photography, cultures, dance, literature, writing; just about anything, really. The arts truly intrigue me, especially thought-provoking pieces. Of course, the arts play a major role in inspiring me in my everyday life.

I don’t have a favourite genre – I read any book that interests me!

I am a trained right-hander from young, since apparently being left-handed is considered ‘wrong’. Basically, I’m ambidextrous! No wonder I find it easier to air guitar using my left hand than my right; I simply relate to the arts than subjects that deal with logical thinking better, too.

A stubborn Bull I am, too. I abhor being rushed. I prefer doing matters at my own reasonable pace. I don’t particularly like changes in my routine, but I can adapt quite easily. I’m a very practical person as well. I enjoy the beautiful things in life, but that doesn’t make me shun ugliness at all. Besides, it all depends on how one perceives beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder!

Still am, but I’m slowly learning to accept imperfection into my life. Also, I’m doing my best to erase the many expectations I have so I could one day master the art of letting go and freeing myself to simple happiness and joy.

Compared to before, I’m less dramatic nowadays. Language-wise, I attempt to blog flawlessly in English and speak proper English online with my peers. Call me a Grammar Nazi all you want, but that’s how I roll. I only converse in perfect English in formal situations and during my dramatic outbursts. Otherwise, I’m absolutely capable of communicating like the average Malaysian!

It’s a different issue altogether when you’re forced to learn for the sake of getting good grades, though. Other than that, I’m open to new information and knowledge anytime! I especially would like to learn more languages and pick up new musical instruments.

…are just some of the things I would love to do in the near future, hopefully!

the basic rules apply. If you respect me, I’ll respect you. If you happen to be someone who has low EQ skills, I’ll try to be tolerant but my patience is definitely limited. I’m observant when it comes to human behaviour. I’m a person of many opinions, but I don’t voice them out unless I trust you enough; I’m very honest and candid when it comes to the people I can trust. Even though I trust very easily, not everybody can prove that they’re all that nice. Hurt me, and I’ll only defend myself if necessary. Hurt my family or my friends – you won’t find me holding back.

Is there anything else you would like to know about me?
Throw me your questions and/or doubts here! I honestly have nothing to hide, so you’ll expect the truth and nothing but the truth.

It’s only how I phrase my answers that you’ll have to be aware of.
Or…you can click hereto go back to reading!

"Will anybody please..
Listen to me?
Hear me speak?
Bother to care what I say?"
SIGS had a Musical Jambouree earlier.

According to Puan Yew, we made history with the first East Meets West music concept in Johor Bahru, with the instrumental ensemble of Caklempong and Gamelan with our school's famous brass band. It was a pretty awesome experience, and we're going to perfect it even more, 'cos we're doing it at a higher level next year. What more with Puan Hajah Norizah saying she wants it big next year. So we shall see then.

Before the performance though, Amoi approached me all of a sudden.

And of course, after being in the same class with Amoi for almost four months now, I'd naturally expected her to come and bug me with some minor matter to get me all frustrated and annoyed, in a good manner of course.

Instead, what I got was totally out of the blue and sudden for me at that time.

"Leonie, are you okay?"
Okay, flabbergasted much?

Initially, I thought, this should be easy to answer, of course I'm okay. Like..why shouldn't I be?

Problem is, it took me a whole ten seconds or so to try and process an answer for her.

There and then, without answering yet, Amoi just embraced me in the corner of the hall, not a care whether anyone else were looking or not.

"Leonie, why are you not okay? Is something wrong? Ah Yuan said you have unbalanced emotions. So I want to make sure you are okay before I leave for camp."
I swear upon my life, I was so touched, I was tearing up at the spot.

Because I know very well, Amoi would only speak to me in English with that strong Malay accent of hers, for only two reasons.

One, is definitely to annoy the hell out of me.

Secondly, and the most likely, is to make sure I can get her loud and clear, since she knows I can't speak half as normal and smoothly in Malay than in English.

Of course, Amoi is hardly this super nice to me, and me alone. So this was a rare occasion indeed.

But really..so far, she was the only one who made such a huge effort to make sure I was okay.

So, I merely answered..


And I never thought I would actually talk to Amoi like this again, unless I was possessed. Or like that time when she was almost sent to Sekolah Teknik.

Amoi just went "awwwww.." and gave me a huge bear hug.

Though, obviously she still wasn't convinced that I was even anywhere near okay, so she offered me a snack she bought from the stall, telling me that she won't be here to take care of me for a few days, so this is to remind me of her.

Man, I never felt better after so many days of what seems to be endless suffering and mental torture, all in one emotionally unstable human.

Thanks Amoi..just for being there when I needed it.

And thanks Ah Yuan..for noticing that I had unbalanced emotions and telling Amoi about it.

I guess this sums up a few things.

When Leonie gets emotionally unbalanced in school, it means that Leonie really couldn't cope anymore. 'Cos from what I'd evaluated from my own behaviour in school, I don't usually throw a tantrum or ever had a bad mood, unless I'm really sick and stressed about something or more. I normally try to keep it all in me, and put on that smile to show to everyone that I was fine. So yeah..it's quite easy actually to notice the change of emotions in me.

Another thing is, normally the people that you aren't really very close to are the ones that would really lend you a helping hand when you need it. The people that are right next to you, and said that they are willing to hear you out, you would rant at them. Too bad, the next minute you realized, it's either you're rudely interrupted or just plainly ignored by them just starting another conversation, not bothered with your difficulties and just moving on with theirs.

Last but definitely not the least..

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