I know, it's been ages since I blogged and I owe the only few readers I have tons of delayed entries, especially the highly anticipated MPO - Genting Trip 2008, SAB IU Day 2008, the Japanese Cultural Festival - Bon Odori 2008 , and the Interact Leadership Training Seminar 2008 (ILTS).

Actually, I'm halfway into these entries, but due to my very muchly superficially sucky Streamyx connection, I'd never had the chance to finish up anything at all, let alone publish them.

Therefore, from this event the blogger concludes that she shall try and blog properly after the exam period, which lasts for..three weeks??

Wowzers, and I'm not done mugging at all.

Puh-lease, I'm still stuck at Form 1 stuff while everybody else is already almost done with revising Form 3. Boo to me.

Which led to the fact that this blogger embarassed herself big time during the Teknik Menjawab Soalan Sejarah earlier with Puan Nam asking her a simple question, but all because she haven't even started studying the Form 2 syllabus for History yet she gave the wrongest of wrong answers and thus making a huge fool of herself. Sigh.

In any case, recently school and everything else studies had been keeping me down.

What is wrong with me actually?

I'm actually getting the NORMAL teenager's life for once, but somehow it's making me lose out on something important.

I can't really point it out, but yeah, SOMETHING is right there in my conscience, bugging me till I'm near insanity.

With this year at last making me talk more to people now then keeping to myself, it's also making the real side of me come out.

This is most probably why I didn't want any close friends at all in Form 2, when I really chose to be the lone ranger, literally.

When I get closer to people, the spoiled and longing for attention side of me just shows, and it's freaking obvious.

It's easy to see Najwa getting sick of me, it's clearly written on her face even if she doesn't say a thing. I don't blame her, really.

It's obvious to see how people in school are slowly drifting away from me, one by one.

Maybe it's just the over sensitive part of me that's assuming all of this.

But frankly, it's getting me down, and adding the fact that I have stuff at home to settle and my deteriorating studies to cope with, I'm dying in my own thoughts.

And there's all the politics in school to try to avoid or settle too.

Gracious sake, please let me go through all of this without me giving up and falling flat face first on the ground and whamming into the depths of major depression.

And it's time for me to delve into a deep pondering session with my brain.

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It’s not an English name I came up with for myself. My mother is indeed a genius in coming up with such a splendid name for me. Although my name has been unfortunately mutilated (nicknames are excluded) over the past years, full credits to my mum for my current identity.

I’m certainly looking forward to changing the word ‘patient’ to ‘survivor’! If you’re interested to read about my journey in battling lymphoma, you can click here to proceed to my cancer blog.

Ironic, I know; this blog is mainly pink instead. I like all colours actually, but I find myself having an affinity to the colour green. In fact, I can safely say that green is my soul colour.

Languages, music, fashion, photography, cultures, dance, literature, writing; just about anything, really. The arts truly intrigue me, especially thought-provoking pieces. Of course, the arts play a major role in inspiring me in my everyday life.

I don’t have a favourite genre – I read any book that interests me!

I am a trained right-hander from young, since apparently being left-handed is considered ‘wrong’. Basically, I’m ambidextrous! No wonder I find it easier to air guitar using my left hand than my right; I simply relate to the arts than subjects that deal with logical thinking better, too.

A stubborn Bull I am, too. I abhor being rushed. I prefer doing matters at my own reasonable pace. I don’t particularly like changes in my routine, but I can adapt quite easily. I’m a very practical person as well. I enjoy the beautiful things in life, but that doesn’t make me shun ugliness at all. Besides, it all depends on how one perceives beauty. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder!

Still am, but I’m slowly learning to accept imperfection into my life. Also, I’m doing my best to erase the many expectations I have so I could one day master the art of letting go and freeing myself to simple happiness and joy.

Compared to before, I’m less dramatic nowadays. Language-wise, I attempt to blog flawlessly in English and speak proper English online with my peers. Call me a Grammar Nazi all you want, but that’s how I roll. I only converse in perfect English in formal situations and during my dramatic outbursts. Otherwise, I’m absolutely capable of communicating like the average Malaysian!

It’s a different issue altogether when you’re forced to learn for the sake of getting good grades, though. Other than that, I’m open to new information and knowledge anytime! I especially would like to learn more languages and pick up new musical instruments.

…are just some of the things I would love to do in the near future, hopefully!

the basic rules apply. If you respect me, I’ll respect you. If you happen to be someone who has low EQ skills, I’ll try to be tolerant but my patience is definitely limited. I’m observant when it comes to human behaviour. I’m a person of many opinions, but I don’t voice them out unless I trust you enough; I’m very honest and candid when it comes to the people I can trust. Even though I trust very easily, not everybody can prove that they’re all that nice. Hurt me, and I’ll only defend myself if necessary. Hurt my family or my friends – you won’t find me holding back.

Is there anything else you would like to know about me?
Throw me your questions and/or doubts here! I honestly have nothing to hide, so you’ll expect the truth and nothing but the truth.

It’s only how I phrase my answers that you’ll have to be aware of.
Or…you can click hereto go back to reading!

I know, it's been ages since I blogged and I owe the only few readers I have tons of delayed entries, especially the highly anticipated MPO - Genting Trip 2008, SAB IU Day 2008, the Japanese Cultural Festival - Bon Odori 2008 , and the Interact Leadership Training Seminar 2008 (ILTS).

Actually, I'm halfway into these entries, but due to my very muchly superficially sucky Streamyx connection, I'd never had the chance to finish up anything at all, let alone publish them.

Therefore, from this event the blogger concludes that she shall try and blog properly after the exam period, which lasts for..three weeks??

Wowzers, and I'm not done mugging at all.

Puh-lease, I'm still stuck at Form 1 stuff while everybody else is already almost done with revising Form 3. Boo to me.

Which led to the fact that this blogger embarassed herself big time during the Teknik Menjawab Soalan Sejarah earlier with Puan Nam asking her a simple question, but all because she haven't even started studying the Form 2 syllabus for History yet she gave the wrongest of wrong answers and thus making a huge fool of herself. Sigh.

In any case, recently school and everything else studies had been keeping me down.

What is wrong with me actually?

I'm actually getting the NORMAL teenager's life for once, but somehow it's making me lose out on something important.

I can't really point it out, but yeah, SOMETHING is right there in my conscience, bugging me till I'm near insanity.

With this year at last making me talk more to people now then keeping to myself, it's also making the real side of me come out.

This is most probably why I didn't want any close friends at all in Form 2, when I really chose to be the lone ranger, literally.

When I get closer to people, the spoiled and longing for attention side of me just shows, and it's freaking obvious.

It's easy to see Najwa getting sick of me, it's clearly written on her face even if she doesn't say a thing. I don't blame her, really.

It's obvious to see how people in school are slowly drifting away from me, one by one.

Maybe it's just the over sensitive part of me that's assuming all of this.

But frankly, it's getting me down, and adding the fact that I have stuff at home to settle and my deteriorating studies to cope with, I'm dying in my own thoughts.

And there's all the politics in school to try to avoid or settle too.

Gracious sake, please let me go through all of this without me giving up and falling flat face first on the ground and whamming into the depths of major depression.

And it's time for me to delve into a deep pondering session with my brain.

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